Why am I chasing God?

What do I really want?

Like is it really God I am chasing or the solution to a particular problem? Do I fast to know and’or see God or to get answers to a request? Snce I have been a Christian, has it really been about the love for God or about the power/capability of God?

I was chasing God because I wanted (still want tho) to make it big in life, like real big, I quantified it. I wanted to be a great one in the path I chose and I know to attain this, for me, I need God to assist in some things. [my purpose]

Now I am chasing ‘cos I want Him to use me to achieve that purpose for which He made the final decision to make me. [His purpose]

I mean, there is a purpose for which He made me…. Right??