It was the 21 of April in the year 2014, a sunny Monday afternoon at about 2.00pm. I was lying down gripped by fear with shivers down my spine for fear of being pregnant
I was a month late on my menstrual cycle and I knew fully well that I had unprotected sex the previous month after trying to have sex for the first time.hmmmmmmm it was a feeling I have always leaved never to forget.
I had never been in support of Abortion so it was not an option. Now there I was a Nigerian,a student in my final year(National Diploma ), a very"devoted"church goer, a chorister and a lead vocalist in her band, a role model to many, a lady whose dad was a knight in the Catholic Church and whose mum was the choirmistress at that point in time, with a 98.99% chance of being pregnant.
here I was battling with whether or not to carryout a pregnancy test for fear of the obvious and for fear of what my parents, my church, my coursemates, my neighbors and also those who looked up to me would say because I knew then that it would break my parent's heart. It was like standing between the devil and the deep blue sea.yes if you are a Nigerian you will understand where I am coming from.
For a Nigerian particularly from the North where I hail You would agree with me when I say I was as good as dead.Nigeria is a "religious"country that frowns at abortion and yet crucify you for being a single mother.
so there I was lying in utmost confusion not sure of what to do. All of a sudden it dawned on me that the decision was mine to make and not anyone else's. so also the regrets,the embarrassments,the 9months of mood swings,discomfort,anti natal care, and finally child bearing,then the big one which was child care and upbringing but also came the thought of the consolation whenever I looked at the bundle of joy and say thank God I kept you
After a long wide thought I made a choice and took my chances,i took the test which was positive as feared, broke the news to my parents who were devastated as expected but who as the parents they were took me in and took care of me,i stood the insults, the gossips, the mockery, the embarrassment,the stress of carrying a pregnancy and carryout out my school project and finally putting to bed
What an episode or ordeal you would say but here I am today a happy single mother with a Handsome 3 years old son who is so dear to my heart and a loving boyfriend who loves my son like he were his own and loves me unconditionally, and also here I am with streams of income that fetch me good money,taking very good care of my son, furthering my education and did I remember to say I graduated that same year with a second class upper despite all the huddles and bustles?yeah I did!!!!
Believe me when I say I am a proud single mother and it was only possible because I made a choice and was determined and most importantly because I didn't allow fear of what people would think or say influence my decision.
PEACE
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