I just hope that the church worker would appear today because it seems that he would go and arrive if only he has extra time for me unlike the other worker who is on the dot and visiting me twice a week; Although I am hard-up when it comes to just sitting down to listening to the recorded prayer meetings, worship service, and the Thanksgiving activities I am still happy because hearing the words of God from the bible, singing along with the hymns, and special songs of praises as well as to the consultation portion in the Thanksgiving activity uplifts my spirit and makes my inner person stronger.
Hearing the words of God rekindles the flame of my trust and faith unto God so that I could endure on what ails me particularly to my body as my health is like it is just waiting for the last nail of the coffin.
It sure sucks to be in my position and condition because a long time ago I was able to do many things. I could cook and control what the meal would taste like but now I am just dependent of other people's cooking so it adds to my poor appetite and ultimately I could not reach my desired weight because of that.
Now at least they are not forgetting me and somewhat giving me time but of course it is not enough because they are not regularly coming like last month where I only had a few and the other month where I got only 1 visitation from the church worker.
I think it is just because of the poor supervision on the workers and I do not know if there will be an improvement or was it just because of the workers themselves are the issue. Anyway I still am hoping for the worker to arrive but it is past 12:00 PM now and no sign of him texting my mother if he would come or not.