Go searching for the forgotten memories of your childhood in the vaults of your mind and compare your findings with what you have become. Yes, there was evil done to you, but you were always able to get up and seek a new chapter of the endless adventures of life. Yes, you were bound by public school and trapped between dysfunctional people but your essential self was liberated to take on what the world held in store for him.
And now look at yourself. Can you still experience human existence as it was when you were a child? Can you find joy in Being? Or do you just compulsively argue with strangers whose mind you will never change on the internet about roads in an imaginary world in a futile attempt to change the world? Are you drawing strength from the inspiring presence of your allies or are you being asphyxiated by the toxicity of your foes?
Really, what happened with you? You were able to enjoy the world and bring about a better one through infecting others with your joy; and now you are but a shade of your true self. When was the last time you sat down and listened to music? Not as a distraction, but by being intellectually engaged only with the art. Can you even imagine enjoying poetry alone on a cloudless night, or have you lost all connections with the fusion of your mind and your emotions?
Your soul is slowly being devoured by intellectual and emotional decay, and while you believe you are fighting to make the world a better place, in fact, you are becoming a demon that haunts it.
Or let us put it in another way: imagine you wake up tomorrow in the free society of the future. Every human interaction is purely voluntary in nature, and the world is thriving by the unleased energies of human potential. But what about your place in this world? Would you become free yourself? Would you find respite and tranquility?
Or only after everything in the world that must be done have been done will you take the time to heal your own wounds and finally seek the joy you deserve?
Look. Our civilization is facing the gravest danger it ever faced. Maybe we will be able to shift the currents towards freedom or we will watch as the world around us collapses. But to not lose everything our ancestors have been building for hundreds of years in the upcoming storm our movement needs not mindless brutes, but the greatest champions mankind has ever seen. The future cries for your help. But you can only fight with a clear mind and with a soul once again able to take on life's challenges
Enjoy a well-earned rest. Watch for a couple days as the clouds slowly pass by and as people chase their dreams. Step back and enjoy the company of forests and mountains instead of that of statists and violent madmen. We need you in the front lines for that the hardest battle is still ahead and the strength of our troops is fading by the day.
Heal yourself, and only then you will be able to wage wars to heal the world.