It wasn't very easy to make decisions in life when you already have a family of your own. Each step you take, you not only consider your own feelings but more importantly, the people (the kids) that will get affected whatever happens. It was during my third child, that I chose a different path, other than being an employee. It wasn't an easy decision to make, especially I have three kids to take care of now. However, at the back of my mind I cannot see myself doing the same things over and over again, with different people. I don't want to be boss around forever. I have been working for 7 or so years, and it seems that nothing has changed in my life. I tried to assess myself that moment, What do I want to make out of my life? What kind of life do I want my children to have? How do I want to be remembered when I die? These things I have to answer and be accountable for especially to myself.
What do I want to make out of my life?? As a child I always wanted to be Somebody someday. When I say somebody, someone who is well-known. I wanted to inspire people, I wanted to speak before a crowd and motivate them to become what they wanted. I wanted to write a best selling book. But how do I become what I wanted, if i sit on chair every single day doing stuffs for other people? When do I get to start reaching this dream, when each day was meant for someone else's dreams? It was hard because as I was doing stuffs for other people and helping them achieve their goals I'm putting food on my kid's table. As hard as it is, I have to take a risk. A risks I'm going to be willing to suffer the consequences rather than facing the end of my days having regrets that I did not even try.
What kind of life I want my children to have? I'm not so much of a family-oriented person. But when I had my own family, I value each and everyone's presence. Growing up in the Philippines, we were raise to have an American Dream. For a time it was really a dream to go to the United States, work there, save money and retire in the Philippines. like most of my relatives. As I was growing up though, I saw that families don't gather anymore as children and siblings are scattered on every parts of the world. Truth is, families only gather on weddings and funerals nowadays. I don't want that to happen to my children and to my family. After so many years of hard work, I'm still a mother who wishes to spare her children from the wrath of the real world. And so I decided, I could only spare them from these things by building a business. A business that if happens to succeed would ensure that their generations and the next and the next will never have to work for others again. A business that would spare them of leaving their families behind in the hope that the American Dream is the only way to have a comfortable life.
How do I want to be remembered when I die? Dying is something we don't think about unless we are faced with so much trouble and we only wish to die. Not everyone would have a goals when they die, I do. I always wanted to leave a legacy behind that people will remember, not only me but God's goodness and greatness. You see we only have one chance to live in this lifetime, and as the clock ticks our time is running out. We have to make the best of what we have right now, we have to be the person God wants us to be. He has given us all that we needed and more and it is but rightful and just to give back the glory to HIM. And how do we do that? By being the best person we could be, by helping others to be the person God wants them to be. We do not personally see God, but when someone becomes good to us it is the image of God personified. And so I wanted to die knowing that I will be remembered by people even after I lived because in that way I know they have seen God's goodness through me.
All these things can only happen with one decision - Take Risk...
How about you? what are the risks you are willing to take??