Hello fellow Steemians! Today Im in the mood for drama. I do nothing but lying in bed and waiting for the night to take its place. While alone a lot of things came up my mind. A lot of questions formed and apparently most of them are "What if's".
I've been a housewife for a year now and somehow I admitted myself that I missed the life of having a career. But my thought is filled with doubts and questions.
What if my sickness will come back?
What if I cannot make it my own anymore?
I somewhat shamefully admit that I lost my self-worth because of what had happened to me the past year. The pain and the fear still lingers and I don't know when to stand my feet again. One day I felt sure and ready and then the next day I felt fear.
It hurts me to know that my family looked-up on me but inside I felt useless and broke.
It hurts me to know that my family believes in my knowledge and capabilities but I wasted it because of the reason that I cannot trust myself anymore.
I feel a little envy to those career-oriented women. Because I don't see myself in thier shoe.
I asked mself what am I gonna be in years to come?
I lost my strength, perseverance, motivation and self-worth because of my sickness.
Until one day I become a part of steemit. Since I become a member here I regained some of my knowledge and capabilities. Steemit reminds me that there is no need for me to go out to have a career and earn. Because I can do it at home with steemit. Steemit motivates me to write everyday. And I feel contented as a housewife not only because I get a chance of earning, but because I found new friends, I can interact with people and learned new ideas from them.
The most interesting part in steemit is that when fellow steemians recognized my blog. Most especially when it comes from 
Thank you steemit family.
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Gheyz