It's okay not to be okay, but it's also okay to be okay. :) It's good to have goals and aim high but more than that I think it's important to be happy where we are right now. People can be shit sometimes but you are also much stronger than their words are.

Just felt like saying something nice as I know how you feel (or at least, can imagine as I've felt similar things in my life). I hope you have a nice day, and never feel bad for who you are. ^^