There’s a girl whose breasts I want to see so bad because I saw the shape of them from the outside of her shirt and clothes, and they looked very, very firm and stable. Quality plus size is life in this world. There's also a possibility that I might want to try having sex with also. I say try, because since I haven’t yet seen her breasts and her naked body, I can’t know for certain if I really do want to have sex with her, so that’s the first area where the dilemma is created. The second and most important point to which there’s ambivalence in regards to her is that she’s not really “there”. Yeah, she’s not that intellectually-driven, and her behavior is very immature and silly. I’m not trying to insult her in any way. It’s just, I really would like to see what she’s got under there, and she’s told me she likes me, but I’m not sure I want to be liked by persons with that kind of behavior. Are you starting to get my dilemma? Yeah… It’s not easy to have a dick… It really ain’t! I've gone non-contact with her since her behavior got too silly for my dick to handle. There's a fine line between being sexually aroused and becoming sick of a certain behavior. I don't want it to cross over to the latter, so I did it because of that. I'm not going to break principle and be around that behavior, but what if her breasts outweigh the negatives from her behavior? I mean, like I said, I haven't seen her breasts nor her nipples, which is something that is needed to make the proper calculations, so here's where all the ambivalence comes in, and this is the essence of said dilemma.
How am I supposed to be able to fulfill my sexual fantasies, desires and dreams if most hot girls I’m actually attracted to really all lack principle? I’m not one to break principle, but this is getting fucking annoying. I’m above 20 and am still a virgin. Yes, don’t think I’m some kind of slob that can’t get laid; I’ve had many chances, but I have denied them because I felt so dirty about being about to angage in some fucking promiscuous sex, or whatever that fucked up shit was. Turns me off hard.
Unknown (but possible) pros: Maybe she has the best-in-the-world, juicy, high-quality nice nipples which exist in my sexual fantasies which I’ll be able to enjoy every night? Throwing that away is basically like chopping of one’s dick and throwing it in the trash bin.
Cons: She’s silly, she can’t be communicated with as a thinking, independent human being (this is not an insult, but merely factual), she’s quite insecure and does not engage in any self-growth, she’s not independent, lives with her family, so she’s not in a position to be traveling independently and meet somewhere nice, so I’ll be the one that needs to buy a ticket to go see her, for fuck’s sake!
I'm too young to die a virgin.
What say you?!
Eddie signing out!
Love
yours,
/Eddie
