Hey Erika... lovely to have you reading and commenting, you're one of the first people to actually properly engage with my writings :) When I use the word 'alpha' I am referring to the term as defined by the ultimate authority the Urban dictionary:

Alpha Male
"Generally the guy who gets all the babes. The Alpha Male is very confident and steadfast. Here are some of the traits of the alpha male.

Charismatic
Intelligent
Masculine
Manly
Calculating
Not offended by small meaningless things.
Doesn't give others shit but he doesn't take shit either.
Does not give two fucks about what others think of them."

This is my meaning.

I swear because I swear with my mouth in real life and it is my way of expression. I don't believe a 'harmful' word used with good intentions is harmful. Just because the word 'fuck' is used as an insult does not necessarily disqualify it for positive usage. Bodily union is one way of viewing/framing sex, fucking is another... I find both of equal value, legitimacy, and enjoyment.
Peace and love xo