Years ago I would be considered what people refer to as a "slut".

While my initial desire to have sex with many men stemmed from losing my virginity forcefully, years later I had sex with a lot of men, some I hardly knew, for one reason.

I liked to fuck.

(me in my hayday)

There's always been bit of a double standard when it comes to sex, right? Men get high fives and women get labeled as cheap. Men judge women for being sluts and other women judge women for being sluts. But guys get high-fived. Although I guess now women are stigmatizing promiscuous men as "fuckboys" but men still high-five one another. I do hope the "Fuckboy" term will lead to both sides of this silly stigma crashing down.

We are alive for what, maybe 80, 90 years? 70 possibly. And we are in our prime fucking (meaning, sex) years for..... 20 of those? I am not ashamed of my time I spent exploring my pleasures and enjoying sex. I looked inside myself and gave into desire and fetishes. I had mother-fucking fun. And it caused no babies and no STDs.

Clearly popping out unplanned babies and spreading STDs to "friends" is not cool.

But I am just saying that having a lot of sex while you're young is not necessarily bad.

Sex with people you don't know well is fun and exciting. And I am glad I got that out of my system before getting to the age of wanting to settle down and stick to one person. I am glad I am not going to be regretting my lack of exploration for the rest of my life. I explored sex so much that now it's "eh". I like it but really only when I love the person. I got all the meaningless fucking clear out of my system. No mystery to seek. No forbidden fruit to pick. I had sex and I had fun.

And I didn't only explore sex with other people I explored my ability to give myself pleasure too. And I gave myself a LOT of pleasure. I explored fantasies nobody ever had to know. I tried putting random objects in random places; nothing dangerous. And I watched porn too, a lot of it. Still do. Porn is awesome. I endorse porn. I encourage other women to explore their bodies. Buy toys. Watch porn. Have fantasies. Fuck yourself really well. I am better at fucking myself than anyone else.

Here is a relevant page from my coloring book:

Ironically, I am now demi-sexual.
I get no pleasure from sex unless I have an emotional connection. This happened suddenly and against my will. I went to have meaningless sex with a very sexy man I had had (heh) meaningless sex with just 5 months prior and, to my surprise, I couldn't get any pleasure from it. I got completely dry. We had to stop! I went home and moaned to my roommates about the cruelty of it all. Then I tried a few more times, same. Then I tried with a person I love, not same. :)

I wonder if I ever would have gotten here without first being a completely free slut?

Go have sex, kids, but be safe. And not if you are actual kids. If you are a kid don't have sex. :)

Years ago I would be considered what people refer to as a "slut". While my initial desire to have sex with many men stemmed from losing my virginity forcefully, years later I had sex with a lot of men, some I hardly knew, for one reason.

I liked to fuck.

Years ago I would be considered what people refer to as a "slut".

While my initial desire to have sex with many men stemmed from losing my virginity forcefully, years later I had sex with a lot of men, some I hardly knew, for one reason.

A word from a former "slut".