so, to give you some quick context on what I'm about to share with you. I'm going thru my DRIVE folders from one of my email addys, looking to see what ideas I've had in the past but never got around to completing them, and came across this document. there was a book about sex addition that I was reading (forget the name), but they posed questions to help me understand my "sex addiction". don't necessarily feel it was an addition now, but at the time felt differently for various reasons.
so the question the book threw at me was
"how old are you now, and how long have you been doing the same or differently sexually compulsive behavior?"
my responses goes like this.... [portion of written words]
"i’m 27 right now, and i’ve been watching pornography since i was probably 8-9, maybe 10-11 (not exactly sure) years old when carlos showed me when i caught him looking at it. he was showing me like it was knowledge that i needed to know to save my life. like it was something that i needed to pay close attention to detail. and i remember i did. i can’t remember much from that time he showed me what porn was on the computer, but i do remember standing to the right of him looking at the screen, curious and a little fearful. curious b/c what i saw on the screen was so unknown to me at that age, and fearful because i didn’t feel comfortable with what i saw. "
anyways.....interesting to read this years later & how my EARLLLLLYYYYY childhood sexual experiences shaped my filters through which I view life <3 <3
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