Back on social media with a vengeance. It still feels the same. Nothing new really. People still trolling and some trying to connect to something meaningful. I hop on for the connect and the art. I hardly connect though. I still feel adrift in the big deep blue sea. Connections few and far between. Am not a viral writer I reckon. Yet I keep posting work. What else to do. I am clueless.
Writing is the one thing that makes me almost happy. I say almost happy because the next moment I might be down in the doldrums further down the spiral. Feeling hopeless and helpless. Staring at the walls with desperate thoughts tugging at my head. This can go on forever. Sometimes it is really hard to break that spell. When am in zombie mode the world ceases to exist.
Am feeling clean for now. I have the energy to go deep. I seize the opportunity like the quintessential explorer. Not sure where the zeitgeist will take me this time but am ready to fly.