Another one of those ironic plot twists of realization is figuring out exactly what I was manifesting at the start of this spiritual journey. I have been thinking I was intentionally isolating myself and perhaps in some aspect I was doing that. What I wanted was freedom and had no idea what it looked like. I think I manifested what I wanted and realized I had the power to do that all along, but when we unleash emotional energy without clear direction, sometimes we end up catching others in the crossfire. I guess it's a good reminder to always firmly set our intentions and know clearly what we want.
It's easy to know what we think we want and it's even easier to know what we want when it is gone, but putting the pieces together to figure out what happened isn't always easy. Self awareness will surely bring new opportunities and possibilities and clearly lessons were learned. I got my freedom from a life I didn't want and I guess I managed to exile the parts that I did want along with it. I think it's another good reminder to always look within for the answers to why and how we feel as opposed to look for validation from someone else. Live and learn. Namaste.