As I said in my previous post, I feel like I was re-born at the age of 21 when a sudden out of body experience swept me off my feet! I decided to tell you guys all about so you can make your own assumptions about the reality of this seemingly just physical existence.
It was a casual workday evening and I was sitting up in my comfortable bed reading a book, not expecting anything to happen.
Some music came up that I had never heard before, it was a very slow banging of a drum. I read the same page around five times, unable to take in any information. My mind was suddenly very foggy and I was unable to concentrate. At first I thought someone had drugged me as I was getting drowsier and drowsier... but I knew that was impossible as I was home alone all day. I didn’t know what was happening but I was passing out right then and there. I knew I’m losing consciousness and I couldn’t resist it any longer – my eyes dropped closed and... then it happened. I was gone out of my body that instant.
I was floating in the Universe and I was seeing our beautiful planet Earth, vibrant and colorful in the vast darkness, accompanied by the stars. On top of the planet was standing a dark silhouette. I knew I was looking at myself; that silhouette was...me. Suddenly light blue rays of light came out of my (silhouette's head) and started going around the planet, slowly at first. I felt like I’m feeling the essence of every being on the planet. I felt every rock, every tree, every animal, every human... it was a strange feeling. I knew I’ve never felt this before in my singular lifetime and yet, it felt familiar, as if I’ve been asleep to the fact that everything is always connected, whether I’m aware of it or not. It felt so silly that I hadn’t seen this before! Of course it’s all connected! It was so beautiful and breathtaking. How could I feel all of this, at once? The blue light rays started making their way back to my (silhouette's) head and as soon as they entered my head, I felt all the feelings and emotions of our planet and it’s inhabitants with such intensity that I could barely take it.
The blue light rays came out of my head and started going around the planet again, only this time much faster. The speed increased and they came back into my head. It again felt like an explosion of everything that exists, compressed into one feeling, one experience of it all. The rays went out, circled the Earth again and came back, giving me a more intense „shot” of existence. It went on for a while and the rays circled around faster and faster until at one point I suddenly realized that I am a human and my body is back down there on Earth going through this experience too and it might be too much for it to handle. The second I realized this, I went shooting back into my body, my eyes popped open, I grabbed my blankets because it seemed like I may lose balance, my heart was beating like a rabbit’s heart, pumping the blood in my veins at incredible speed. It was as if I had just finished a marathon. I looked around confused, I expected other people to stand around me and wait until I wake up because it seemed like I have been gone forever... but... wait... my table lamp was still on, I was still sitting and... the same song was still playing. How?! It felt like I had been up there for two weeks... or maybe an hour? Time felt confusing to me, it was as if up there it didn’t exist at all.
I grabbed my laptop and looked at the length of the song that was being played. It was almost over and in total.. it was only 3 minutes long.
I could not believe what I had just experienced. There was no way I could explain this to myself. Note that spirituality, out of body, near death experiences and astral projection were concepts completely alien and unheard of to me. I had never even tried conscious meditation apart from having fun with my imagination in my childhood and teenage years.
This experience shook the very core of me, awakened me to the fact that I am not my body – I have a body, that I am something much bigger than I thought I was before, that we are all much more connected than we would like to think and that separation is a complete illusion to a human kind. All was one and one was all. It put me on a road of practicing meditation and studying spiritual concepts, quantum physics, plant medicines and connecting myself, or in other words, allowing the bigger part of me to flow through more easily and guide me on my journey here on Earth. I still don’t know how and why it happened; it is a mystery to me. It felt like the Universe has kicked my butt to awaken to more in my life. And I would like to think that I had asked for this in one way or another.
I’ve come a long way since that very first experience and more beautiful things have been revealed to me. Many doors have opened and through some I have walked gracefully, through others – barely crawling. And there is so much more to go!
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Happy traveling out of your bodies my friends! :)
See you in my next blog,
Annija xxx
Photo references:
- Photo by Josh Marshall on Unsplash
- Photo by João Silas on Unsplash
- My own.
- Photo by Kevin on Unsplash