Stage 8: I GLIMPSE
The rage only made things worse and I became ill. Dis-ease set in. Doctors told me the only cure was cut, poison and/or radiation. I knew that was bullshit, but I didn't know what the actual cure was. Illness dragged on, no end in site. Finally, at the peak of my depression, 'I HAPPENED'. Deep in the pit of absolute darkness, an introspection moment occurred and out of nowhere came a spark of insight. I had a glimpse of enlightenment that shook me out of victim mentality. I had everything backwards, circumstances are the effect, not the cause. I attract that which occurs. But, victim mode didn't completely vacate, as I still cycled in and out, more victim than not. This ray of sunlight is permanent, it never goes away, but how do I get it to illuminate every corner of darkness within?
Stage 7 here - https://steemit.com/awareness/@damono/an-autobiography-of-an-awakening-i-stage-7