I love personal development if I didn't come across that way... my mistake. And I love all kinds, from many different types of teachers. I love making connections between everything, and using different terminology for the same thing just because one resonates with who you are and how you feel in your experience. So I have been following a few of the spiritual teachers, inspirational coaches, energy workers that I have been following for quite a while now. And for the most part a common theme they have is think better, feel better, do better, be better. But it all mostly starts with thinking, being aware of your thoughts. At first this was very difficult for me it took a minute for me to separate myself from my thoughts, and when I did I felt better, but that wasn't enough.
I started listening to Abraham Hicks, I listened she'd resonate with me and then I would take time away. And she talks about paying attention to how you feel, adjusting the thought to feel better. This came more naturally to me, because in any given moment I can more easily tune into my feelings. It still did not really soak in yet.
For some reason, I am the type of person who desperately wants to believe that you should trust yourself and your environment to do it's thing. Anything you learn or behavior you pick up soaks in somewhere until you have seasoned it enough to produce massive flavor. All things are useful, even if it does not feel like they are.
About a week ago, I was in a daze, feeling shitty at the moment. I tuned into what I was thinking and I was astonished at what it was. Every teacher I had listened to said the same thing, if you are not conscious of your thoughts, they go on autopilot. You would recreate memory movies in your head, usually one associated with shitty programming. And then you would manifest similar outcomes in the future. You are practicing for the future essentially. I was replaying a memory I hated, with feelings that were toxic. I didn't even notice because I just was not thinking. But an overwhelming sense of calm came over me, because I know I could do that again. I felt it, that I could catch myself when I am on autopilot and feel my way to something different. I can create a better practice. And that was fucking epic!
Lots of love and nothing but good things!
Thank you for reading,
goddessj
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