When you are blaming yourself that you did something wrong, when you feel like a victim of outside circumstances and when you are looking for excuses in others - that's when you're absolutely claiming, you are not the creator of your life. But the truth is entirely different.
You know, you've come very far. Very far on the road of getting to know yourself, very far on the road of accepting yourself and very far on the road of loving yourself. The greatest love story of all times - exactly the one you are writing now.
It is the fact that the deeper you go, the deeper the darkness is, the scarier the shadows are, but your consciousness is wider and more expanded than ever.
You are very well aware, you are aware now, that whenever it hurts it is not a punishment, but a step further into the direction, to get to know youself and completely fall in love with yourself. There is no punishment, it's all just an experience, experience of your own integration, your own enlightenment and each and every detail, which is a part of this adventure, is there with a certain purpose and at the exactly right time.
Don't try to ever change anything, don't try to ever push away anything and dear amazing divine being, don't you judge yourself for anything at all (no matter what) - that is the main reason for all your "problems", stagnations and blockages. When you are judging yourself, when you don't allow yourself to embrace the experience, whatever it may be, even if it is so devastatingly painful; that is when you don't allow the flow of life to run and you stay the prisoner of your own head - the prisoner of your thoughts and emotions. Loving yourself is totally different from judging yourself; when you love yourself, you accept yourself and so you breath in everything that happened to you, is happening to you and of course everything that is coming your way, without judgement. Because each and every detail is exactly there, where it "should" be, it is helping you, that you can absolutely discover and get to know thyself.
Each and everyone of us, is an absolute creator of everything in their lives, even of the slightest detail. No matter how impossible that may seem and even bizzare at moments. But the truth is, there is noone outside of you, who could harm you, enslave you and you are definetely not the victim of outside circumstances. You created them on your own, although you might not be aware in a present time, what led to a certain situation.
But what exactly does it mean, that each and everyone is the creator of their own lives? And what happens when we judge ourselves and when we are not able to take responsibility for the events that happened to us? That is when we place ourselves in a victim role. In our "small poor me". Who is hurt, who is angry and offended...Are you able to love yourself, when it hurts? A great challenge for a human on Earth. However, it is possible and can be done. I am speaking from my own experience. And more often you do it, easier it is. You are becoming maestro of life. Your own master and lord. When you claim, you didn't choose certain situation, event, interaction, word (insult) or anything similar, that is when you say on an energetic level, you are not the creator of your life. That outside circumstances can throw you here and there and play with you as they please. But it is not true! Each and everyone of us creates everything, although one might really not be aware of that in certain moment.
And all of you, who are reading this article, are absolutely at the point, when you wish to consciously create your life. Noone gets in touch with these words by coincidence. Everything happens at the exactly right time and in the embrace of completely perfect circumstances. Ok, let me finish this segment. So, when you don't take responsibility and you push away certain parts of yourself, which are often expressed also through other people, you allow the aspect of yourself, the one that feels like victim and not the creator, to play the leading role and lead your life from a really limited perspective.
How long are you going to keep allowing this? How much longer are you going to torture yourself and try to put everything in an "ideal" scenario? As I have written many times, it doesn't matter, what is the purpose of this and that, it doesn't matter if you did something "right" or "wrong". What if the question about the purpose of life is being asked inadequately...and life is here only to be lived?
Without purpose, without answers and without any plan whatsoever. When there is a plan, there is an expectation knocking at the back door and as sure as hell, when things don't go the way it was "mentally planned", something very well known to all of us comes to the surface - judging yourself. I should have done this differently, why did I go through this and that, life always punishes me, I am a "poor, little" human...and so on and so on. YOU ARE NOT! ONE MORE TIME - YOU ARE NOT! And if I also explain this ironically and comically: when you place yourself in such position, you are still an amazing creator - an amazing creator of your little, poor self.
Everything is a choice, absolutely everything. What are you choosing for YOU? The beauty of living, which includes also the dark, wounded side of the coin, or relentless persuit of your goals and ideals, which in truth can't be achieved anyway. Your darkness is your divinity. Allow yourself to be dark, so you'll then be able to really shine! True joy lives indeed in integration of your light and dark side, masculine and feminine inside you. Without one there is no other - and vice versa.
Let it hurt, when it hurts. When you are sad, allow yourself to be sad. Allow yourself to be everything you are and don't push away anything. Especially anger. When you need time for yourself, absolutely take time for yourself. Because the only being that really matters is YOU! Furthermore, if we expand the essence of this thought a little bit. As long as you're not going to be joyful and balanced, noone around you is going to be joyful and balanced for a long time, or is not going to be around you at all. It's absolutely clear, no more words are needed.
Are you able to love yourslef, when it hurts? Are you able to say I'm sorry, when you're being strict on yourself? Are you able to be your own best friend?
So, let's stop beating around the bush, and let's express it simply, honestly and adorably vulgar: "Fuck it, everything is perfect, just the way it is!" Hmm...this could be our everyday's morning and late night mantra.
And let's see, where do we arrive like this...
Lots of love!
