For a long time, about 5-6 months I was in a forced isolation. Completely cut off from the outside world by HS so I would be better able to learn the lessons he would have me learn without distraction and confusion from the input of others. As I fought and struggled against this isolation my mind was filled with anguish that I was being punished. As time elapsed and I began to accept and allow HS guidance I began to look at the traumas in my life. I looked at the past experiences I have had and my perceptions of those experiences at that time. I then began to see them differently with a new understanding of their purpose in my life. To accept them as they are and with an understanding that all of these things were expressions for a call for love from those who were creating these events.
In many ways the perpetrators are also the victims of their judgments of themselves. How I choose to see the situation and experience it is my choice. It is and will always be my choice and my decision on what I will experience in any given moment. Even in a near death experience it is my choice whether to stay or go. No excuses, no finger pointing, no placing the blame in any of it. How I experience anything in my life is my choice and my choice alone. All I may do is ask HS for the guidance I will need for whatever His purpose for me is. No longer do I look to a book or another for the answers I was seeking. HS has shown me that it is now time for me to walk with Him and only Him as my guide. The concepts He guided me to learn and live are now in place. By looking within with HS I will be guided and given what it is I may need. This is my path unique to me and my experiences in life. These things are part of who I am.
The "story" of one’s life is just that a story. Until one looks at the experiences they have had and the perspective they are looking at them in they continue to suffer. When willingness to look within and see things differently is allowed perspectives may change. With them an understanding of a bigger picture is presented with a deeper level of understanding being presented for clarification. When the "truth" is finally revealed a sense of contentment, wellbeing and peace comes in to replace the torment of previous misconceptions. This "peace" I experience is happiness in its truest form. For there is no longer conflict within bringing questions of uncertainty based on the notions and dictates of what another may specify as being correct. In sharing my experiences and the perceptions I have had with the change of understanding can help another to see their own situations differently. Acceptance without judgment to allow what is to be one with me.