I know the image must be really confusing, but let me explain.
The big light blue circle is Source Energy/Field/Creator/AllThatIs.
The smiley face is myself, and I too am within the Source...because there is nothing that exists or can exist outside of Source!
Every experience that has ever happened to me, is happening right now and will happen in the future are all provisions of Source Energy. There is no other besides this Source Field...and it is the energy of Unconditional Love and Unconditional Compassion.
The term unconditional is beyond the comprehension of my human corporeal mind, because I live, breathe, eat, sleep and know only duality. I have to access a higher source to develop the understanding to be able to comprehend this unconditional love.
So the starting point for me is to step by step, one day at a time try to see the bigger picture and try seeing the love that surrounds me, no matter what my duality-oriented mind shows me as feedback from the stimuli I receive from my environment.
Just the effort I have put into trying to do this is making me feel kind of lighter on the inside.
No one seems to notice anything different about me though!
I guess that too is good thing anyways, because I don't feel like I have to prove anything to anyone anymore.
And that feels liberating and yet strangely peaceful on the inside.
I hope to keep posting new revelations that strike me personally as breakthroughs in my search for the meaning of my life!