I would like to rest early today because I want to sleep longer so that it will add some easement for my emaciated and pain-trodden body when the magic of natural sleep at least would make me feel well after getting up again in the morning although it is still okay for me to not wake up anymore as well.
The pain reliever that I took this morning is in effect now although it really is very slow to take effect at least it is long-acting and with that I could enjoy more easement and comfort and I just hope that the pain alleviation would last until the morning of my dialysis God-willing.
I am now in an effort to cut the head of the snake, the source and cause of my pain which is to stop my Parathyroid in pumping its hormone that causes wrath and destruction to my skeletal system. So now I am taking Vitamin D because I realized that I am not getting an exposure to sunlight for years now.
The only time that my skin is struck by the good rays of the sun is when we go for my dialysis at around noontime for my dialysis. But my mother is quite a bit protective that she ensures that she holds the pillow or fan to my right side so that I would not get struck by the afternoon sunlight. I always tell that is okay because it is just the only time I can feel some natural light for my skin.
Ultraviolet rays also are needed by our bodies in order for our skin make some vitamin D which then could be used by our bodies for our bone health and phosphorus-calcium balance. But at least we now have such supplements like Vitamin D3 and vitamin K2 that will help me in [articular for absorbing Calcium and preventing blood vessel calcification which actually is happening now.
I have several superficial veins that are already hard like the ones over my head and in some of the veins of my arms. I pray to God to help me recover my bones and finally feel much better soon when the pains and aches finally would subside and be gone away.
Now that I am trying something that I have not down before, maybe it will make a great difference so I am just on a wait now for some changes to happen like for my dry skin to improve and for of course the pains to alleviate. There is something in the back of my mind that my expectations would come into fruition so right now there is something like an excitement that I feel already.
So I am always praying that my life would get lighter with its burdens because I only have a relatively short time to live and I just wanted to spend the rest of it without much misery and suffering or to just die immediately if it is the will of God already.
Right now even though my painkiller acts just to mask the problem I still needed it because it is hard to live my life with pain or to anyone for that matter. It is hard to move around and even to turn to my side to sleep and turning to my back again especially when I go to that bathroom, it had become a necessity already for me and it is too difficult to live without it now. So everytime I would feel the relief it is just like heaven-sent for me and I thank God about it.