During the past few days, I've exchanged some messages with one of main figures in Steemcleaners @logic
After we met in wrong circumstances, this time conversation went really well and we touched same points on some subjects.
@logic was really patient with me and he explained my patterns of abusive behaviors and how I myself was partaking in some of them.
2 weeks ago when whole mess with my girlfriend's blog happened, I was triggered a lot and couldn't be very rational at that point of time.
Therefore, in pursuing justice (in my eyes) I let my emotions control me few times and wasn't communicating with fellow Steemians as I should have.
After thinking for some time, I was weighing between my EGO on one side and my success as Steempreneur on the other hand
As I care about this blockchain too much, it is emotional relationship... I decided it is time to destroy EGO and move forward with what is right
Therefore, I conclude
- No matter what kind of excuses I find for my abusive behavior from the past, the fact is - it was still abusive behavior.
- It doesn't really matter if whole community self-voted at some point of time, this particular case was against myself and I should not look at no one else rather than myself.
- In the past I self-voted my comments with delegation I bought for 3 months straight, I was trying to get the profit and didn't really think of the impact of my actions on STEEM blockchain!
- At that phase of egoistic behavior, I wrongly welcomed some new users from the community by telling them what they did wrong and upvoting my comments rather than finding a healthier & more beneficial approach!
I thereby confirm how lot of my actions in the past were coming out of wrong places.
- A month ago, I brought my girlfriend on chain and delegated her 1111 SP so she can follow the trail from Trevon and farm rewards with her micro-blogging
- After her blog was flagged and she left I instantly transferred everything she earned to my blog and powered up 😈
As an experienced Steemian I should have known better! By any means I shouldn't have encouraged that type of behavior.
If my girl decides to come on STEEM again, next time she'll have to put more time and effort in her posts.
That might seem like pain in the ass at first, but as time passes that way she'll not only upgrade her skill-set, but develop herself further and manifest bigger abundance.
Nothing comes easy in life, and as someone who went through that road on STEEM I never should have encouraged this type of easy-going behavior.
After all, if I continued with self-voting how I started when I came - I would never be here at this point of time with almost 10 000 STEEM in my pockets!
For some of you 10 000 might not be a lot but for me STEEM blockchain will be Top 3 in the future and I cherish this investment as a complete life changer for me!
Therefore I decided I will work only in best intentions for this blockchain. I will form meaningful connections rather than have a short-minded approach.
Getting cool with Steemcleaners and their personnel is a good start! From now on, we will be united in the same front doing what is best for this chain to ultimately empower it.
After this apology is posted on STEEM blockchain this should mark a new era for me - I will get removed from Cheetah's blacklist and re-start my journey with some new, healthier horizon.
After all, I will be attending Steemfest 4 and it would be super dumb to have enemies there based on virtual life when we will meet in real life. That would be hilarious, right? What's the purpose of everything then?
I hope this honest apology and fully transparent communication will help people to recognize me for what I am, a fully authentic human being walking this journey and learning day by day!
After all, we are all humans here for a limited time and there is lot to learn but not much time to waste. :)
I honestly feel in my heart that every kind of drama is not only time waster but energy sucker as well. Therefore I'm thrilled to be able to put an end to this agony and turn a new page on...
Have a great day and never let your EGO come in way of your personal growth.
