Beggars, GTFO!
The world is not fair and I feel sorry for people who cannot afford to eat. I feel sorry for people living on the streets without roof over their heads. I feel for all of them...
Here's the thing though...
I am not rich. I can barely afford my own living expenses. I am a student. I am not eligible more student aid, so I need to finance my education by my own two hands. I haven't bought my asthma medicine in about a year because I feel it's too expensive...
Wanna hear more?
- I can do this for an hour or two, no problem.
I lost my father in late December 2012. He was my role model and he died in front of me, at home. Out of nowhere. He just collapsed. His heart stopped beating. I wasn't capable of reviving him. I couldn't do a single shit about it. He literally died in my arms. I blamed myself for years and due to that and a handful of others things I'm not so proud of, I have suffered from panic attacks, anxiety and depression ever since. It's a never-ending battle.
Each day is a struggle.
I live in Sweden, or what some would call Swedistan due to our politics. I have never got any help, even though our country is "oh so wonderful". The system is corrupt and I can blame others for all the faults and misery in my life, but it gives me nothing.
I haven't made any calculations but I would probably need about 800 STEEM per week to afford everything I need to pay at these prices...
Do I beg?
- No.
Do I buy votes for hundreds of STEEM per day?
- No.
Do I send mass messages on Discord or memos on STEEM asking for donations and upvotes?
- No.
I still help others. I still focus on redfish in an attempt to grow our middle class on STEEM. I still give even though I could easily keep everything for myself, sell all my votes and behave like a greedy, selfish little bitch that so many others are doing. But I don't, because I think it's wrong.
My situation is better than others, but it's also worse than others at the same time. Just like your situation, depending on who you compare with. I have been tossed around like a piece of paper between this and that for years. I tried to get help for my mental illness and I had to wait for more than a year before I actually got to see someone...
They gave me a bunch of prescriptions for pills I couldn't afford to buy. Fast-forward a year or two, and I wanted to study. I sent my application and got rejected because I had studied before. So, I couldn't get a new degree due to a previous one...
I appealed, I sent letters, I called. I talked to dozens of people and I still got the same answer.
It wasn't until I called the principal from another School directly, that I got to talk with someone about my situation. A nurse-education, that's what I study right now. A nurse/assistant nurse-education with focus on psychiatry, but it's not the end of the line for me.
I want to help people who suffers from mental illness. I want to be the help I never had. I want to make it easier for others. If I can help one single person to live their life to the fullest, I will have completed my mission. - That's my goal in life...
I work part time, as often as I can, which isn't much due to the full time studies. I help my grandmother and my mother. Both financially and practically... In between all of that, I spend time on STEEM and I spend time talking with randoms on Discord. I educate others. I try to inspire, motivate and encourage others... And, I play video games too, to get some time for myself. I need some "me" time.
The thing is, that I need to prioritize, just like you.
I continue to learn each day, but I have come a long way so far. My time is limited. I can't do everything at the same time, so I need to prioritize. Whenever I spend time on you, in an attempt to educate you on Discord, I prioritize you over other things. - And you end a long discussion with "can you give me money?"
- FUCK YOU.