Have the name you have, whatever you call it. Regardless of the position you have and so it seems very high. If they told you something contrary to what you know God has decreed for your life, do not listen. If you tried to destroy your dreams or get out of the race, breathe and remember, none of them has made the maximum sacrifice for you. Follow him, believing that when he stretched out his arms and died on the cross of Calvary, he mentioned your name too, and through tears and pain said: I LOVE YOU, I am doing it for you.
Although everything seems to be going against you at the moment, God will help you and will still take you out of the pit of deepest despair. If some say they are beings of light and of much science and have no mercy, no love, ignore them. Because the Bible says that by its fruits the tree is known. If you were stoned by the ones you least expected, remember that they are not doing it to you, they are doing it to one of God's little ones and they will have to render an account if they do not repent. If you feel that you are on the ground right now and that you lack the strength to continue, this is part of the process. But remember that God is your Shepherd and promised to walk with you and to cross the valley of shadow and death so that you can overcome.
If today your broken soul cries out of pain that no one can hear or feel, do not give up, because God is believing in you. If you go swimming against the current and it seems that you will go to the bottom of a waterfall, there is God to take you to safe harbor. If you are going through a disease where even your flesh and your bones fail, healing will come for you. And if you have waited for something, abandoned, betrayed or misunderstood, remember that you still have God who is your faithful friend and knows exactly what you are feeling.
I know that there are battles that are very strong and that sometimes it seems that we are going to die in the attempt. That no matter how hard we try, we do not think we have made progress, but God who has called and selected you is real. At this time you may only be experiencing His silence, but that does not mean that He is absent from you or alien to what you feel and what happens to you. This only means that it is closer to your chest and your heart. That is driving you when you do not feel strength and that at the end of all the victory and blessing will be so great that you will not have enough words to describe and thank all the good that you will receive from him.
I know that sometimes it's too exasperating, I'm not telling you it's easy. But it is time to show God that you love him independently of everything. That you love him for what he is and for what you know that to the fact in your life. I know you cry because it has not been easy, you want once and for all that the tears and pain will end, but crossing the valley of tears, God will turn it into a source and when the rain of your eyes fill the ponds, you will go power in power. You will see God.