So some of you may already know this via the couple discord servers I'm on. But for those who don't, last week I broke up with my boyfriend.
We'd been together for nearly 2.5 years, and met in the cutest way possible (both taking a korean class because we're both half-korean). We had a lot of great memories, but behind many of those great memories are not so great ones. We fought nearly every month over pretty much the same issues, and despite the solutions and compromises we came up with, we'd come back the next month with the same grievances.
It became a cycle I couldn't bear anymore. I had to take stock. Were these bad days worth enduring for the sake of the good ones? Every relationship has good days, even the worst ones. And I'm not saying mine was the worst, but it wasn't great, and with the possibility of this continuing for a lifetime...I had to make a decision.
Our last fight was Tuesday evening. The saddest part to me was that he had walked out with our dog to pick me up after that same Korean class we first met at. I knew he had done it because I told him I liked that he did it last week. And then, not even an hour after returning home, everything fall apart on schedule.
He needed time to think about what to do. I spent Wednesday going over the entire situation. When I came home, I made the decision for us. He agreed that he felt the same way. And that was that.
Since we still live together, the pain has been even harder for me than my first break up, which was via Skype. I moved entirely into one of the bedrooms, but my brain keeps thinking nothing has changed, even though everything has changed. I've cried nearly every night for various reasons. I didn't think it'd be easy, but I guess I wasn't expecting it to be this hard either.
Drawing this comic helped, even though I was crying the entire time haha. It was another way for me to express and process how I felt and the situation overall. Since he was a prominent character in my comic, I thought it would be a good way to address his pending absence as well.
As the comic suggests, it's possible we may try to reconnect. We discussed this, and the door has been left open. But what we both need right now is time away and energy on ourselves, so that's something I'm trying not to hold my breath for. What happens will happen, lol.
I know I've been posting my older comics on here, but to avoid confusion and to keep my sanity, I think I'll just stick to only the recent stuff. All of "This Is My Life Now" can be read on either webtoons or tapastic so you can head over there to read the rest.
Thanks for reading this looooong post. Feel free to leave any advice or encouragement in the comments below. I hope everyone has a great Monday!
