It is incredible that your situation is or has been so similar to mine, as I read I felt very identified with you, I felt exactly the same and even worse but little by little I managed to get out of my shell and begin to grow and mature.
I also draw and understand very well what you mean with the state of mind .. When so many things happen in my head it is difficult to have a motivation that makes me draw .. I can draw very well but if my mood is not It is the best you will notice in my art. You despite going through a bad time have created something really spectacular, I loved the colors you used, and the gif I liked a lot, besides your previous publications are great .. A big hug !
RE: DROWNING [A comic where I try to explain how I feel]