"Happiness is a mental or emotional state of well-being defined by positive or pleasant emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy."
Hey what's up Steemit!! Hope this blog finds you well. I wanted to start off with that definition, due to the fact that lately I haven't been my all time happy self. I've been thinking all this week what can my next blog be. How can I give this awesome Steemit community something to read about and actually enjoy, and at the same time learn from an experience. So I figured why not speak from the heart and give u guys something real/insight about my life.
So as you know my name is Eric. I'm a 23 year old young man who's way of living right now is working on my family's farm. I had to recently resign from my job of co-teaching/coaching due to being accused of "not showing up" when I was there every day. Since then my life has hit all kinds of speed bumps and I have lost sight of everything that matters and all my happiness. Since resigning I have had people call me a loser, and unworthy as a man due to the fact I couldn't keep the job. When you hear those comments daily it begins to wear on a man and you start to believe it.
Me after my first game I coached in....
Oh the excitement lol....
So every day I was kicking myself in the butt for losing that job and honestly believing I was a loser. I would literally fall asleep with tears in my eyes cause how I felt and the comments certain people were telling me. I started to believe everyday for at least a month "Damn Eric your a loser". I woke up bitter and went to sleep bitter.
As I was dealing with this. I was dealing with another issue. That issue was my parents and my girlfriend. You see my parents have always considered me there "baby". But ever since I got in a serious relationship, they have done nothing but say negative comments and try to bring us down. And it's sad due to the fact my girlfriend hasn't done nothing wrong to them, they just never gave her a chance. They see her taking me away but it's not that at all. Anyways that took a toll on me as well. Well one day I just broke down. I was hiding all my feelings about how I felt around this one special person in my life. And I just couldn't take it no more and folded. I told her how can you be with a loser and be happy about it. I said I don't deserve you because of what I am and who I have become. She got so angry at me and told me I have to stop all this. She told me I was worthy of anything, and that no matter what has happened she is PROUD of me. And that she always has my back through thick and thin. When she told me those words it was the first time in at least a month I was happy and I smiled, and had tears of joy running down my face. She had believed in me when nobody else has. She stood by my side when everyone else turned there back. And that my Steemit friends is happiness. Someone that can make you feel like your worth something on your worst possible day, at your worst possible moment.
I'm now at a place in my life where I don't care what others have to say or think about me, because I know at the end of the day I have that one person to turn to.
That one person who can put me back in my place so to speak and snap me out of it. I am currently seeking another teaching job at a local middle school that I attended when I was younger.
I wanna say thank you to the Steemit community for taking a time to read this, and thank you for showing me how great people can be. I believe it's important for people to know if they are at a point in there personal life that they feel worthless or unmotivated because what others tell them, they are not alone. Regular people like me also have to deal with this stuff too. So I hope that's the message you guys take from this. You aren't alone!
