Writing has always been a big part of my life. I went through a few hard times as a kid and writing helped me process everything that was going on in my head and deal with the strong emotions I was experiencing.
At first I got a diary and wrote a little every day. But I still felt the need to share my thoughts with other people. I never had many friends and my mum was not the easiest person to talk to. That's when I started blogging, and it quickly became my favorite thing to do. I used to spend hours finding the best photos and music for my posts, typing and changing everything a hundred times before publishing. Gaining a few viewers and finding nice comments gave me the confidence and support I so much needed.
My life became pretty hard again when my parents decided to move to the UK. I was 15 at the time. So we all packed our bags and embarked in this new adventure. Though for me it was far from an adventure, but rather a massive, horrible life change that left me confused and lonely. Here I was in a brand new world with a brand new language to learn and no friends. Again, writing was my help, my crutch.
But the years went by and life became busy. I got my first job, moved in with my boyfriend... writing moved from this important part of my every day life, to just a weekend hobby.
I was struggling with another problem: my maternal language was left at a 15 year old level, and my english was not good enough to express my thoughts. I couldn't write in either.
I started reading everything I could get my hands on, trying to improve my english vocabulary to be able to verbalize what was in my head. But every time I tried to make a post I would get frustrated and quickly give up. Plus the thought of starting a new blog, the struggle to get anyone to know it exists and read it was overwhelming.
It had been almost a year since I wrote anything when my fiance brought up Steemit. I made an account and began writing. Didn't even think about it. And it came to me easily - no struggle, no frustration. Now I have this enthusiasm to write and to share that I haven't felt in such a long time, and I'm just starting to realize how much I always needed this and how important it is to me.
So thank you Steemit. Trully, THANK YOU!