I feel like I will going to the heaven (soon) anytime. I am afraid to die that is just it, and I am afraid that I will be going to the 1st heaven while I am wide awake and see things unfold before me before I would poop in agony and terror of death brings. I want everyone's prayers please pray for me I am worried. I just texted my brother where to retrieve my finances which are exclusively cryptos, too bad that he isn't interested so I can't share my tthoughtss with him but I had done my part.
My feet are raised to my bed because I am feeling lightheaded and yawns sometimes, a sign of a low blood pressure. I also feel markedly weak which is also a sign of a low blood pressure. My heart is slow as a sludge and I am worried it will stop soon. If I would die I just want a quick one and not this thing that I feel stressed-out and worried to the bones.
I still wanted a little bit more time because I wanted too still do more. I still want to repay and most of all repay to God that created me. I also pray that all the people who helped me in any way that they can will be repaid by God himself. Thank you all because you all had been so kind to me. May God Bless and keep you all.
I just hope that that is is not my last post. God help me.