Intoduction
"Who am I" is a difficult question for me. Im torn between who I think I am, who is the real me and who I really want to be that is not me right now.
Background
My parents lost their job in garment factory when I was in Kinder 1. Their separation pay was used to build our house. From good life, I think we had, it became an everyday struggle. Being the eldest of 5 was not easy. Life that time was a nightmare. My father went fishing. My mother turned to a monster I say that time. Wrong move we got hit, cursed and all i do was cry. We went to school with an empty stomach, walking, no money. Sometimes when father not home from fishing we will eat rice with salt (still lucky to have rice). We are lucky when we got coffee to put in the rice like soup. I can remember us sharing a can of sardines from breakfast to dinner.
I start working at the age of 6 selling ice to neighbor which is very far need to cross a river to get in there just for 5 Pesos i wished to get. I collect bottles and plastic too. One thing I'm proud of is I am good in school. I always got good grades, I am a consistent honour student. But my parents don't appreciate that. They we're never happy of my accomplishments. I wished when I was young that even one day they can tell me "I am good!". But no. My neighbors appreciated me more than my parents. Starting Grade 3 i worked as a tutor. I also got scholarship so i am free in school. I used to massage every teachers and principal. They even take me to their home and pay me after. That was nice.
After high school I went to college. I stopped. The scholarship wasn't enough to support my study. From province I went to Manila to try my luck. I worked in a government office with the help of my Aunt. Great job, great money! I able to help my family especially my siblings. I fall in love to a man i thought an angel later i knew he is a drug addict. I had my son. We escaped hell together. I got 3 babies in heaven now. I went back to college but i stopped to support my sister. I worked in financing company for 5 years.
Who Am I?
I'm a happy person who's happiness lies on simple things especially to the people I love. I help people in need. I share my blessings to street children. I always pray for the good of others. I am a believer of "karma". I believe of doing good to and for others. I am not selfish. I think of others before me.
My Accomplishments
- I didn't finish my college but my sister did. She is now a Certified Public Accountant other one is taking up Education and the two got job as well.
- I lost 3 babies but God blessed me two living with me. And I'm proud of them.
- I escaped hell in my ex partners house and now I live in heaven with someone who loved me much.
- Every year (December) since I worked we go for family picture taking. And we eat all together and go cinema.
- I've been to three countries now. Thailand, South Korea and Northern Ireland. Who would think that a poor child will travel far?
I wished..
I had finished my study.. And I know it's never too late. One day I will have my own diploma!
I think I'm strong woman to bear the life I had. I think I got a good heart after all the hatred surrounds me. Maybe I'm just blessed. Or maybe Karma is my friend.
