You have the power to dream so dream on. If your dream is to experience such thing dream it more! I have bipolar disorder, with the maniac state being... kinda weird. Right now im chasing my dream to become a researcher. And kinda do it. Something that under the psychiatric community is not really possible or easy. It all started with me looking at the birthplace of my dreams.
When there is a will, there is a way mate! Wish you the best! Stay strong!