750 SBD Can Potentially Change My Entire Life And Help Others To Change Theirs Too.
I know, I said that I would be out of Town and that I wouldn't be able to be as active on Steemit until I'm back. That's still true, but there have been some changes and I won't leave town until the day after tomorrow... So I figured that I should share this with you now instead of when I'm back again.
You might have heard this before, but one of my goals in life is to become a treatment assistant and focus on teenagers who suffers from mental illness. I have been a full time freelancer for several years and I've been my own boss. To be my own boss have been something really wonderful and it have helped me tremdendously, as it's been difficult for me to socialize like "normal people" due to my mental illness and it would've been extremely difficult for me to work for someone else. I suffer from anxiety, depression and panic attacks. I have learned to handle things better with time so I don't suffer as much in my daily life nowadays compared to how it's been.
I don't have to go into any major details regarding my situation as I've done that before. My father passed away in late 2012. He died at home, in front of me... And I've been suffering from these things more or less since that day.
I have tried a variety of medications without much results and I've been talking to different therapists. Some of them more ignorant and stupid than the next. During all these years I have often felt completely alone and abandoned. I have lost many friends due to my mental state. And due to the fact that most of the people I had around me didn't understand what I was going through. In fact, most of them didn't even try to understand... So they gave up on me.
I have experienced and gone through some really bad things and what I wished for the most, were someone who tried to understand my situation. I did everything I could think of and after a few years of struggling, I finally found someone I could rely on. This person, a therapist eventually got another job and I stood there by myself once again.
During all this time, I realized more and more that my goal in life is to support people who's suffering from mental illness too. I have seen the other side of the fence. I have been there more than once. And I have also experienced all the creepy feelings of being alone and without anyone to rely on. My goal in life is to change that, and to be there for others.
A few weeks ago, I sent an application to an education that starts in March. It's only 3 weeks until the education starts and I haven't got an answer on my application yet. I obviously wish that my application will be approved and if it is, I'll start to study in 3 weeks. The education is 1,5 years long and afterwards, I'll be able to work as a treatment assistant.
I will go from being a full time freelancer to full time student. I will go from being my own boss to being an employee who works for others. However, I am aware of those changes and this is something I truly want, so I am totally fine with doing that... Even though I kind of hate working for others.
My mission is not to become a wealthy freelancer. My goal is to be able to help others who struggles in life due to mental illness and I want to "heal the world" by helping these people to live their lives to the fullest.
Even if these things are completely different from Steemit, there is still many things that are very identical and similar in many ways. My 
I Have A Student Debt Of ~$3000 USD.
~$3000 USD is about 750 SBD at the time I'm writing this. (SBD is worth $3,91 according to coinmarketcap.com right now). I could obviously beg or make a charity post to ask for donations to help me to pay off my debt. I could buy a ton of large votes from the many different bid bots by sending max bids to each of them... But, I don't like the thought of ruining the chances for others in the same bid rounds and I'm not known to beg for help.
This is the thing...
If my application is approved, I will need a student loan to afford my living expenses and afford to go to school, as I won't have any other income during the time as a student. However, the worst part about this, is that I already have a student debt and I need to pay that back in full before I will be eligible a new student loan.
So, I won't be able to study if I don't pay back the previous student debt. This is obviously a huge obstacle but I have also felt that it is far from being impossible to pay back this loan. 750 SBD in total. That's what more than a handful of Steemians makes on just a few articles, so it's obviously not an impossible task I have ahead of me... Even though it's a pretty crazy amount of money.
I have roughly $1000 USD right now. Most of that is part of the earnings for my contributions on Steemit. So I need about $2000 USD more to pay back this debt. I want to pay back this debt with the use of my Steemit earnings. This has been a goal of mine for a long period of time. Not only due to the fact that it would obviously help me a great deal, but it would also basically mean that Steemit paid for my education to some extent.
It would also mean that Steemit helped me to make a radical change in my own life... And it would mean that Steemit made it possible for me to help others too. I personally love the "pay it forward" idea and I have always been fond of such things. Both in life and on Steemit. To be the benefactor of the asapers on Steemit, and to be part of a "pay it forward" project is truly amazing. And to have been able to come this close to my real life goals with the help of Steemit is incredible.
However, even though I have already come a long way, I am still far away from the goal.
3 weeks, $3000 USD or 750 SBD in total... And I don't like the thought of sending max bids to bid bots and I don't want to ask or beg anyone for donations. My goal has been to accomplish and reach this by myself, with the support in terms of upvotes and comments by others. Along with the ongoing growth of my following.
I have 885 Steem Power and that's about $3000 USD at the time I'm writing this... But I have delegated all my Steem Power to the members of the
So my question is...
- What would you do?
I could basically just undelegate my Steem Power and power down. 13 weeks from now I'll have the $3000 and I could easily get a loan of $3000 right now to pay the student debt and just pay it back in 13 weeks from now.
That would mean that Steemit have paid for my education, just like I want and hope for. The Steem Power I have in my account is what I have earned from all my contributions, so it would definitely solve this problem rather easily.
However, I have no intentions to power down. I want to grow my account, help others to grow with the use of my delegations and I want to continue to build my account further on. I am a firm believer in Steemit and I am certain of the fact that Steemit will prosper in the near future.
I also have no intentions of asking you or anyone else for any type of donation because I am not like that, and even though I would obviously be extremely thankful, I wouldn't feel comfortable with others paying my debts like that.
As I also don't like the thought of sending max bids to bid bots, as I know for a fact that others will lose money if I did that... It doesn't leave me with so many options. At least no options I can see clearly.
That is why I ask you...
- What would you do?