I'm having a baby girl!
I posted a while back that my girlfriend was pregnant and that I'd soon be a father. Well.. That time is almost here..
My girlfriend and I are broken up at this point in time and I'm a bit nervous.
This is my first child and I always had ideas of what it would be like, what my situation would be like and what I would hope to have accomplished by then. Sadly enough, life got the better of me at points and it's taken it's toll. I'm wondering if I'll do well as a father or if I'm even worthy of being a father at this point in my life. I'm wondering how things are going to be for my daughter if her mother and I don't reconcile and come together again. Most of all, I'm scared that I won't be able to provide for my daughter.
Financially..
I work, a lot, but I barely afford the bills I have as is, working overtime. Her mother is a nurse, so she's got her side covered easily, I'm just worried about being able to buy the things my daughter is going to need. I'm very frugal and I've saved what I can, but a mere thousand dollars in a savings account won't ensure my daughter any real security. I don't want to have to depend on her mother to be able to cover the gaps and it bothers me.. I have a lot of pride in how hard I work and how well I manage money.. I just don't have a lot of money to begin with.
Emotionally/Mentally..
I worry that I won't properly guide my daughter the way she needs to be to get the hoped for (or similar) result in behavior or intellect and respect or love that I am hoping for. I want my daughter to have the best opportunities she can in this world and a lot of that will come with learning how she learns and perceives the world and I'm not always sure I'll know the best ways to approach certain topics or methods or ideas/etc.. I would just like to know of others' experiences with their children, to kind've maybe guide me in certain situations. I'd like to know some common things that come along with having a new child and what I might expect. I'm a bit scared and it'd help a lot to get some advice.
