My name is Keela. I have two children a little boy and a little girl and they are my world. They make me laugh and we have so many fun memories. I can see so much of me in both of them. I am engaged and soon plan to marry in late October to the person that has swept me off my feet. An amazing friend, lover, dad, just anything one could ask for. I work full time as a nursing assistant a job I am very passionate about. It means more to me than anything I could do other than being a mother. It completes my heart. It is my calling in life to help people and put smiles on faces that chose not to smile anymore due to illness, aging, dementia, Alzheimers, etc. I also enjoy writing. It too is something I am very passionate about. I try to use my writings to touch others. I try to make them meaningful and make someone think "hey if she can be that so can I." Guess you can say I try help someone feel better one word at a time. Trying to make the world a better place I assume could be my reasoning.
I can relate to a lot of different topics and aspects of life. I too have been the victim of abuse of several varieties. I try not to get to personal on that part of my life because it all still brings back unwanted memories of times that I should have never went through. No one deserves to be mistreated in any form or touched in any way against their consent. I try to use things I have been through to help make others feel better. Let them know they are not alone. I am here to remind them they are beautiful, loved, wanted, needed in life, and to never ever let anyone make them feel as if they are not. Grasp the things that mean the most to you even if it is just yourself and hold on to it tight. Only you can mend your own heart and keep reminding yourself you do have purpose, you do have goals, you do have someone who cares even if it is just me a stranger you acquainted with via internet. I have went through homelessness, jobless, suffered back injuries which led to losing my job, family issues that one could not even imagine. I do not mean typical family arguments. The issues I suffer from led to me not speaking to them for quite sometime now. It is better that way. Sometimes family is the first to stab you in the back. A lesson I was taught the hard way and left with an unmendable wound in my heart. That empty space I really do not know if it will ever heal. I use that pain to help others. I guess You can say I am the kind of person that uses the broken pieces of my life to help fix the empty spaces in others.
The things that pull me through day to day are my children, my fiance, my career, and of course writing. That is my escape from the thoughts in my head. I once had dreams of becoming a best selling author. I wanted to write a story that would inspire another. Something I could be proud of and know it helped someone else. I also have goals of becoming a nurse. I have experienced so many taking their last breath. It breaks my heart every time. I always get ask if it gets easier since I have done this kind of work for almost 10 years. My reply is no it never gets easier. It is like saying goodbye to someone you have made part of your family. May I add I work in geriatrics. It sometimes is a struggle to hold onto a smile while you have to stand and hold family members as they say goodbye to their mom, grandma, dad, brother, sister, grandpa etc. To be honest I cry with them.
I have always been told I have a really big heart now not to mistake that kind heart for weakness cause lordy do I have a temper. Something that is not a good thing to have. Over the years I have taught myself to overcome my temper. Not to let it control me and to pick my battles. Easier said than done depending on the situation. I have a issue with rambling which is what I believe I am doing now. Possibly getting a little to personal and jabbering . I am unsure how steemit works. I love to write even if it is meaningless to someone else. It means a lot to me. I want to blog about something that matters so I let everyone in on what kind of person I am that way you understand I have compassion, I have been there, I have had to suck it up and ask for help, and I want to be there to remind you it is ok.
Some of us do not have that support from others all we have is social media or something like steemit I guess. If nothing else I hope I made a difference to someone today. Putting an end to my about me article. After all the storms I did stumble into the light. I have found that love, happiness, hope, dreams coming true, waiting for me at the end of the rainbow. Sometimes life is not all about the gold at the end. Sometimes the smile on your face is the gold. Embrace it.