Do I need to farewell?
It's hard to say Good bye...
This is the reality that I need to face...
But how will I do that...
Everyday I always cry...
Tears fall down to my hands...
Bow down my head on the table and tears continues flowing...
My real mother called me by video call at messenger,
I can't stop crying when I heard her voice...
I feel that I need her comfort... And I told her,
Please... Take care of your health... I don't want to lose another important person in my life...
My real Mother...
I am not blaming you, mama, if you left me behind when you gave birth to me. Instead, I'm thankful. I grew up in the care of my grandmother and gave her all life to take care of me, just as she cared for her children.
You see Mama, I grew up a good person... Nanay taught me to love my parents whatever mistake they did in the past... Here I am now... I'm a parent too! I'm a Dad with 3 children.... Doing what Nanay did... Giving my best for my children...
Now, I know the feeling of losing someone you love...
It's very hard... I almost break down and I can't do my work properly...
Compose and releasing of my feelings I can do right now.
I'm thinking of something that I don't know where it will go...
My beloved Grandmother who take care of me when I was a child.
I am coming, Nanay... Wait for me...
I am sorry if I'm not with your side in every year of your Birthday for almost 12years...
You're the best mother I ever had in my life...
You are always in my heart and in my mind...
Every time I'm thinking of you, tears fall down...
It's just like hearing your voice and whispering in my ears... Saying...
"Kenneth... It's time to eat..."
"Kenneth... Maybe your back is sweat..."
"Kenneth... Are you hungry..."
"Kenneth... It's evening..."
"Kenneth, how's your wife and kids?"
And she told me that touched my heart,
"Kenneth, I might not be able to see your children anymore..."
I told her, don't say that! I promise you, you will see my kids your Grandchild... And I did that promise! This year month of November they went to CAVITE, and see her Grandchild for the last time...
That day, she has the strength to sit down. But in the next week, she can't even carry her body... She can't sleep well... She is always crying... And my wife told me when they came back from Philippines,
"Nanay, is looking for you... She thought that you are there... She is sad... Nanay remembers you and never forget your name..."
That breaks my heart... And tears fall down that my wife didn't know...
Please people here in steemit... Help me with my plane ticket... I would like to go back in the Philippines just for 7 Days is enough to be with my Grandmother funeral... I would like to go this week if possible...
My total amount:
In Dollar is 1,375
In Dirham is 5,060
this is my ticket...