Fear of Community. I Need Help.

I'm having a hard time making creative decisions.

It's not the creative part, as much as the marketing part, it's not the marketing part as much as it is the community part, it is not the community part as much as it is the time part, in the words of Schoolboy Q "That part, that part, that part."

Does anyone else feel like time is speeding up?

It's my fault I know it. I released a book and a song a week a part. If I want people to pay attention to the book then I need to promote the book. If I want people to pay attention to the song I need to promote the song. While I am working on the book, I feel like I am ignoring the song. Vice versa.

Joining a community like Steemit is daunting to say the least. I spent half an hour this morning trying to sign up for a contest, and I couldn't even get my Steemian account opened. Server issues? I'll try again later.

I'm not a selfish person in real life. I make time for my family and friends. I really want them to be happy and successful and I assist in anyway possible.

I do feel selfish online in a way. It's not that I am against meeting new and interesting people. In fact, I would love to meet some new people. I just have a hard time paying attention to what other people are doing, because I feel like I should be sending emails out to promote my book or song.

It doesn't feel good. I love creating. I don't mind sharing, but the pressure of getting noticed sucks. So maybe, I need to just stop. The book is released. The song is released. Maybe I need to just step back and work on this community thing.

I've never been so great with community. The word networking makes me feel sick to my stomach. Again, I like people. I just don't like the idea of strategically making new friends.

I know. I am in the wrong here. There is nothing wrong with networking or community. I just have a poor attitude towards these social encounters.

It's okay though, I am willing to learn.

So if anyone has any suggestions on how I can get more involved in the Steemit community, in a real genuine way, please share. I need some help.