Here I am again among you, some days ago I decided to take some "free" days from steemit, where not only did I not write but not even compulsively controlled notifications on partiko or check my wallet.
It served me. It was useful.
Sometimes, while loving this platform, I feel that my energies are lacking if i spend on it a long time.
It is not just the time that i dedicate to steemit that varies a lot from day to day but it is also the interest that I put into it.
Sometimes I regret not checking steemit constantly because I have the feeling of losing news or important things or trivially post that interest me. Like " Oh no im not connected with steemiit community, what will happen now?"
I always feel like i am not doing enough for this platform or like i am not enough into into it.
I feel like i am not a good follower sometimes because i can not follow steemit as much as i want.
But unfortunately I am not nerd enough to stay all day attached to a computer, the funny thing is that as a young girl I used to do it every day, now at the thought of being in front of a screen all day I get itchy.
I feel like i loose my life if i spend too much time on the internet but at the same time i feel like i loose my internet life if i spend too much time disconected!
Weird right?
However, the days of the break was useful to me, sometimes I really feel the need to disconnect from everything, especially in the virtual world, to remove WhatsApp and its assimilating groups, via Facebook and its notifications, goodbye discord, partiko, Instagram and goodbye also to emails.
"Screw you all social networkks" that's what my brain scream sometimes.
Sometimes I feel like I'm living inside this phone box or this computer box and I feel like I'm a prisoner, does it happen to you too?
Furthermore, the continuous exposure to the virtual world, I think, deprives me of some real joys, as j ax says in a italian song in vogue two or three years ago:
"It is better to share it than to live it."
Here, sometimes, I find myself in this sentence because I am so focused on "sharing" or looking for content for posts, photos, etc. To forget to live, to forget that my life is not on a phone but is out in the world.
So I sometimes need a break from all this being "social" .
Even more than one.
I really need to find a harmony out of the virtual world to have then also renewed ideas and energy to spend in the virtual world, not to find myself arid, demotivated in front of a screen with a blank page in front of me where I don't know what to write.
A break helps, small or large, as needed.
Steemit is beautiful, stimulating even if sometimes I find it distracting and I also have difficulty with tags to look for posts that really interest me.
However, it is also a place that requires a lot of time on the PC and a commitment to writing and reading, and sometimes I lack the desire to steemiate as can be said in jargon.
Then, fortunately, it returns because I believe in the possibilities offered by this platform.
But i need a break sometimes.
And you ?
