Are you addicted to Steemit or Busy; are you a writer stricken with fever and the desire to write more? I’m feeling that I am suffering from both, and when I say suffering that’s not necessarily in a negative perspective.
I consider myself a creative person. Not in the sense that I can create art (though I try sometimes) or compose music, but that I can create unique things, such as this article that you are now reading.
My job entails creativity or frankly it would drive me insane. To think is to keep the grey matter stirring and to have to think outside the box is even better.
If my career involved moving a pile of bricks from one stack to another, I would quit within a day.
I’m paid to improvise and use my experience to make something unique that is fit for purpose. It pays well but still does not create enough of an outlet for my creative streak.
This brings me back to the addiction of Steemit and writing. I love doing it but for what cause?
My ‘real’ job pays the bills and keeps the debt collectors away from my doorstep and yet recently I find myself focusing so much of my attention on writing, so much I feel that I’m pushing myself.
A couple of high profile Steemian's that I won't name have some debt problems. Maybe to them Steemit is a souce of income, but I don't see them powering down.
I don't have that problem, and the heavy crew are not going to come banging down on my door.
'You don't need to do this', one voice says. 'Take a break', it emphasizes.
‘You must post something everyday’, the other voice tells me. I don’t do things by halves and writing 500 words every day takes time; a very precious commodity in my world.
Why do I do this? (1) I don’t get any financial gain from it, (2) it takes way too much of my time and I am neglecting my wife and daughter by doing it.
Because I am addicted and I am finding it hard to derail myself from a daily activity that has become the mainstream in my world.
I mentioned point (1) here as I have not taken a single STEEM out of my account since I started in early March 2018.
Why do I keep feeding this account, shelling out £100 here and there just to make my influence larger? Is it all worth it. I really hope I’m doing the right thing.
Most of my SP is available for voting as I want that big vote to cast upon others. Is it because I crave some kind of attention and with that bigger than average vote I can gain me some kind of following?
I have to admit that is part of it. It feels nice to be respected and I value this above any financial reward. It also feels great to give back something to the community especially those I find that I feel are not getting that respect and the rewards that they deserve.
I keep saying I’m going to tone it down, not post every day, and forget STEEM exists even for a single day but it’s hard to resist the urge.
If you can say, 'I can resist the urge', then congratulations, you’re not as far gone down the black hole as I have ventured down yet.
If you found this article so invigorating that you are now a positively googly-eyed, drooling lunatic with dripping saliva or even if you liked it just a bit, then please upvote, comment, resteem, engage me or all of these things.