Updates
1. Greetings from the hospital (me & mama). I finally saw her and held he close after close to 5 years.
She grew so much older in these past few months. She lost pounds and shine! I love her like crazy.
2. A full public RPC node (wss://steemd.steemgigs.org) has existed for some days now but i haven't been opportune to announce it.
There is a lot of gratitude from me towards steemit as a whole and especially its people, 
Full RPC node specs:
- wss://steemd.steemgigs.org
- RAM: 256GB DDR4 RAM
- Network: 1gbit/s, Germany
- CPU: Intel Xeon E5 12-core
It has been fully synched and ready to go for some days already, so feel free to use!
Hoping to use this means to encourage and give extra drive, especially too, to developers located in developing nations, so that we get to see more developers overall, building apps on steem and spur steem/steemit growth.
3. I am with hopes that https://steemgigs.org working alpha, should be ready to go, in a few weeks. I am hopeful that it will be on its own separate server
It's Been Rough But Even My Mama Wants Me To Continue Loving, Even By Means Of Steemit.
After 4 years and 350 days, i got to see my mum and it was all different. She wasn't the same mum i used to know. I couldn't even look in her eyes. She has suffered all her life, yet she suffers. So much pain!
I slept by her side in a house (i held her close) for a few hours, after she landed in Manila, aided by a wheel chair.
She practically fought with all her life to keep alive, during the entire journey! Life has so much cheating.
Then in the next few hours upon her arrival, past midnight, i was out in the rain, looking for a hospital here in Manila to admit her in. I found one eventually and brought her in.
We have spent days together in it. We cry and hug and everything and i shed my own special tears from wishing and prayers.
In front of her, i can't be so strong for her. I let the tears go and still manage to let go and fall and be broken before her as she is Mama!
She tells me to be strong. She wants me to keep on. She knows what i do on steemit too and she wants that to continue.
2 weeks before her fall, she spoke of joining steemit. She would always read my posts and especially the loving comments and it was her "one major exciting way" to connect with me and feel prouder of me, since she wasn't physically with me.
I am telling you, i am sure she sheds tears, when from far away, she gets to read beautiful comments from my steemit family about me.
Yesterday alone, all her many relatives have spoke of joining steemit. They have started signing up and there are a ton of them. They all have known of steemit from my constant steemit URL shares to Facebook etc
I hope my mum does eventually get to join in soon too. I pray and hope!!!
My mum hasn't seen her own family for 35 years too. She sees them now as they visit the hospital and she still manages laughs and giving out admonition and strengthening others.
We spoke of meeting this year (me & my parents) and i finally met my mum but it wasn't all joy.
I couldn't meet with my dad though. He doesn't even know my mum is sick or that she is currently with me. I haven't spoken with my dad for months now, though, i love him like crazy because, i wanted my very next utterance to him, to be whispers of good news. I wonder when he will next hear my voice at this point.
I went to Dubai and met with my 3 sisters, whom at the time, i also haven't seen for close to 5 years and the entire meeting was solely to discuss, the nice things with would do for Mama but weeks later, my mum who has never visited a hospital except when she bore us to Earth, was knocked upon, with severe illness.
I will pause!
My papa, when i eventually see him, gosh, it is very likely to be the same. I carry both parents dreams and mine.
Let's not discuss my case.
My case is undiscussable! Words aren't capsules enough. Thus, many times, i stay speechless and bear the load!
My case has always been; long before steemit! Since 13 i have known my role. I was carrying my dad's dream already at that age and have been all out to fix people since then.
My dad did just the same before he shattered from the weight of his hefty dreams. He didn't have steemit in his era though. He is still the strongest man alive, even now!
My mum knew this of this in me, very early too. She knew she would share me with the rest of the world. Both parents knew this was my path and they let it happened. I am mere dust, i know but this is indeed my role.
I am grateful to steemit
Before steemit, i was touching lives. I don't know were it came from but it was a gift among other things and countries didn't matter; "human" did. I used to be with boys, on the street and "what's the way forward" was ever the theme.
It's load but i was created for this.
In these recent periods, yes, i have been doing loads of trauma but this has always been the case. Steemit did help matters! Untalented (steemit) was born too.
In real life, i don't have a regular life. I don't eat; i don't do leisure; i don't get to do dates; no hugs; no air; no relaxation (my body can't); no sleep; no family; no pat on my physical back; no boys around (when it comes to inspiration, drive, knowledge, direction etc); thus, steemit was a major outlet but there is more: i saw steemit's potential instantly when it comes to touching lives on a grander state, creating legacies, build empires etc but there is more; i saw it also as tool, that can help to a great extent, "humans", to become more exerted, better version of self, which in turn is gift to humanity etc
Steem/Steemit has helped me play out and rehearse my always existing dreams into fruition.
surpassing Google with steemit.com
I don't want to talk much in this post as there will be loads to talk about, when i fully begin to talk about these things next year.
I pace things when it comes to talking about me, because i want even my saddest stories to fix and yes, my stories, even the saddest ones can fix. Maybe not me but it can fix and touch many humans in the world and generations yet unborn and that fixes me a bit.
For now, i push still. Bills, bill, bills and i push still cos in reality, when it comes down to it, its Us, that counts; "Families of families" and many other things in reality is very much vanity.
Prayers
Please pray as your prayers work and if you have got dem tears, sprinkle some into your prayers.
If you met this wonderful Ajayi family and spent one whole day with them, you will know why!
In this precious one family, there was so so so much "love" involved.
Stay Awesome
Your Boy Terry
I do need strength
If you want to support an extra witness and you support mine "steemgigs", it will be really helpful, especially in terms, giving me the direly needed extra drive & strength.
Overall, there is no doubt, that i have been here on steemit, proven, solid and i will keep on being here! Steemit is in my books and my heart has a soft spot for it and this will keep on because upon it, i kept my legacies and even my sad stories and shared this very-hard-to-share moment.
For humans and steemians, i am all in, for you all
To vote my witness, simply visit https://steemit.com/~witnesses and type in "steemgigs" into the first search box for witnesses.
If you want me to make witness voting decisions on your behalf, simply visit https://steemit.com/~witnesses and type in "surpassinggoogle" in the second box for proxy.
Conclusion
Offer a service under hashtag "steemgigs". Attempt out-of-the-boxness on hashtag untalented.
"Everyone has something to offer!"
You have a home on the Steemgigs community on discord. The #untalented family is also hosted on there!
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