Telling steemit community a little bit about myself and why I do the posts I do.

Hi Steemit Community.

I am a little afraid to walk down this road with you guys for at this point in my life I am very ashamed of some of these things. Well I guess there's no point in holding back. I can't read or write very well I've done as much as I possibly can to fix this but it is still just as hard as the first time I ever tried.
By the time I was 13 years old my real dad thought that it was more important to work than it was to learn the things that are required to survive in life. A good portion of these are things that you learn in school reading, writing, social communication capability none of which I am very good at.

At 13 years old I was pulled out of school and put to work I will not go into the unwanted detail but let's just say by the time I was 19 years old I could build a house with my bare hands. By the time I was 22 years old I can run about 80% of all heavy equipment, I can do Roofing, I can do siding, I can do all aspects of finish carpentry, I could lay carpet, EXE.... The list does go on but I have a news flash 90% of these incredible skills you need a license or permit to practice. Let's take a second to think about what I'm lacking in. ( Reading, Writing, Social Communication Capability.)

By 20 years old I had lost 3 children I will not go into the harsh details but I am just as much to blame as the parties that were involved. From the age 20 to 24 I had became broken bitter and very distant with the constant thought of a death wish around every corner. I became very involved with drugs and alcohol and the world that is drugs. 50% of this was due to the fact that I realize the skills that I had been taught would never help me survive in this world. 50% was due to the loss of my children. So I made a decision I called my sister Hive account@jwinblood and asked if I could move there to sober up. My sister surprised me and did what many had not, she opened her door to me. This was harder to ask than she will ever know I am a very prideful person.

So at 24 years old I begin the long process of sobering-up. At this point I was addicted to numerous drugs and alcohol. I laid in my sister's bed for many many days slowly weaning myself off of everything. When I could actually talk without sounding like I was dying my sister invited me to Christmas at my parents house. I was more nervous and ashamed than anyone will ever know. At this point I was given the opportunity to stay. I had no future goals or any idea where I would go from here but I chose to stay.

I've always had a love for computers and games so my sister Hive account@kellywin21 gave me her computer. Within a couple of months I discovered a program called blender and began my adventure of creating game art. My dad Hive account@dwinblood who is my step dad not my real dad don't get those confused. Not that I don't consider him to be my real dad he is more to me my dad than my real dad is. He gave me the opportunity to learn new ways to survive in the world he also taught me many things.
He said I had a natural act for 3D art. I could not see it at the time but I can see it now.

I want to take a moment to tell you folks I do not seek pity I just want you to understand the person I have become. I have been sober and clean for many years now. Working my fingers to the bone on my computer. I have a wonderful 3 year old daughter that I spend mini hours with. I am also allowed to be in contact with one of my other children. So needless to say my life has turned around for the better and not because of luck or chance because of pure will to be a better person.

Now you know a little bit more about the person I am and why I post the way that I post. I post about modeling and gaming because it is my life and I love it very much. I mean no disrespect but I do not post to satisfy followers. I post because it's a way to show the things that I love to do and maybe by chance in that process I will find people that enjoy the same things that I do. Also help me build the skills that I so much long for reading, writing, social communication capability.

I am also going to start using my name as a tag so that people can find my stuff easier.

Thank you Steemit Community for reading my post.