My Steemit adventure began December 15, 2018. Like with everything in life it's had it's up and downs. Some very big downs. Life has had those same ups and downs and always will. At the time, I was working graveyard shift for a taxi company, my co-worker had just been fired. I was in the position of carrying on. I could not leave at that time, it's hard to look for work when you're sleeping.
I needed something to do for extra money. I had several people tell me Steemit was the way to go. I figured I had a lot on my mind and things to say and a lot to give. As so many others quickly found out, it's not easy to make money on this platform. It takes money to make money for one and it's not a get rich quick scheme. I knew it was going to be work. I did not kid myself about that. I made my introductory post, which made I think 0.03. My next couple of posts I was lucky if I got anything let alone comments. I still giggle one of the first people to comment on one of my posts was 
I did figure it would have started off a little better. I went through what most people do after 3 months. I started to question what I was doing. I thought about what I wanted to accomplish. Then I started getting involved with groups that worked on helping new people grow and stay on the platform. With that new direction, it gave me new life the groups when I started 
I had 2 people that I really connected with in the beginning. Only one is still here and doing wonderfully 
I think 
Around that time I had started a weekly 'series' Mindfulness Mondays. My whole goal was to stick with my original game plan of helping others. I wanted a forum that we could openly talk about mental health and different practices that could be used to help ease some of the 'attacks' the come about. I went more than 20 years without proper help. It wasn't until 5 years ago that I finally found the right therapist. I did not and do not want anyone to suffer the way I did without help. So I provided the tools I was given and shared my stories. It just became harder to actually open up a dialogue and postings without constantly repeating myself. Maybe I'll start up again.
After moving from participant to judge for 
I was posting almost daily. I occasionally missed a day, but nothing major. I was starting to see payouts for my postings. I had received delegations to help with my
I did have a few interruptions in posting. Overcame one, but this second one has been difficult. Like so many HF20 affected me deeply in so many ways. In fact, I am still trying to see the positive in it. Here I am trying to get newbies to stay on the platform, yet they're limited to posting or commenting to a couple times a week unless they have personal funds to invest to increase that. I understand why it was done, but it turned out to be we cut our nose off to spite our face. My growth and payouts declined sharply. So did my motivation. I admit. This time of year I always have issues. It isn't Seasonal Affective Disorder. My birthday's have been mostly horrible, I try to just let it go and not think about it, but I still hit a low. I know with meaningful relationships it's not quantity, but quality. I have 7 people in my personal life that it actually matters I am still here. Sadly, the one person you feel should always do just a little something special (your spouse) never does, it really affects you in ways you can't imagine. My main issue this time of year is I just miss my family and our big dinners, playing games.
Since I don't believe in resolutions. I believe they are a setup for failure and you end up with a lot of self doubt and negative energy. I do believe in setting small achievable goals. Once that you do have to work for but if you just make the effort you can achieve. Then you make another and so forth. Life is one day at a time. You can't live in the past and you cannot worry about the future, so what do you do? You take the time to be the best you that you can be. No matter what that is. This is what I work on daily.
If I can get this down then life would be less stressful. So, simply this is my goal for 2019. I vowed to myself when I started Steemit, complete honesty and openness. To be impeccable with my word. So let this be, my 'kickstart' Let's see what we can do together to show that this platform works and do what we can to grow along the way.
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Thank you for your continued support, Love
