I guess I hit the depression stage not just the literal meaning but also the stage where the prices and value of things are going down. BTC and SBD are down. My posts are also down. Not getting good attention and value. Well that is life. I started way down. Got up to a moderate level even reached the higher ups. Then suddenly back down to medium level. I loved that where there are lows and highs together, the middle level.
But when the rumors started things went bleak. Maybe I am not a really good writer and an unknown. Mediocre person, nothing to really show for. I've reached a plateau. I desperately need to get off of it. I am getting the feeling of insecurity, inadequacy, unworthiness and so many more negative feelings. Seem like the bashers, liars and cheats have succeeded in putting me down. I have reached the lower level again.
I know I shouldn't feel this way but when I am suddenly ignored, I feel like I have done something wrong?? O maybe more people are spreading rumors, gossips or lies and what ever else.
Oh dear I am getting suspicious.
I even made a post asking who, what where and why. But they have not been answered. I even said I will never stop #steemit. I need to stick to it. The world is round so I am at the bottom again. No matter how sloe it is revolving, I will reach the middle again and soon the top. I should not let my team #SteemitDiversify down, or better, I WILL not let them down. I will go on for them and for me.
I should be happy and energetic because we are having a festival and tomorrow will be the tribe contest in front of my house. At least I get to watch it free.
Maybe I should relax. Get cozy and comfy. Put my feet up and watch TV or listen to music. Have my gadgets on hand in case I feel like #steeming. And a hot cup of coffee.
Maybe later or tomorrow things will be better. I believe and claim it!
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