Sitting here my rock by the ocean, I am still thinking of all these children who died in that school killing. Children are such wonderful gifts from God that we sometimes wonder why, about children.
We have a friend who lost her husband and her youngest son in the same accident. They were all in the car and her husband even phoned for help before he died right there.
If you talk to her you realise that her pain will never go away. Her oldest son is still with her and he is a wonderful child, but the baby who was such an excellent rugby player, and in her life he will always be a baby to her no matter how much time passes.
She has this child that she brought into the world will always stay a baby.
The two people that died and went away for ever.
I tell you people who say they are sorry for you if you lose a child, do not know what they are talking about. I personally do not think anyone can really know how it feels to lose a child, if you do not go through it yourself.
I as principal had seen some parent’s loose children and I can assure you that if it is not your child you will never understand how it really feels. These were my children as well as I had them in my school for many years so my heart is just as broken.
Still born babies as well as small children who die always stay small to the parents.
They will always be somewhere in your heart.
In the minds of these people children never grow up and they stay the way they look when they passed away.
My wife has a family that passed away on Christmas day, many years ago, yet every Christmas she is reminded of their death.
The one thing that she always remembers is that the three coffins went down into the ground together. She was only 12 years old but up to this day she can tell you exactly how she felt and that is more than 60 years ago.
These were her only family as it was her mother’s brother, his wife and their two children.
The one was not yet in school and the other had just started school that year.
The worst is that the man who killed them was totally drunk and nothing happened to him.
Imagine this happening 17 times in town, who will not feel sad.
I think I am just feeling so sorry for these parents that I cannot get all these dying children off my mind.
I am not depressed, I just feel sad and all these people and I am only thankful that this has never happened to me.
My wife lived next to this family of hers and she was an only child, so I can really feel for her as I was also an only child but have never lost a young friend.
So all that I think I am doing is getting rid of all this sore in me for these parents and I pray to God that they are all believers, as they really need to be for this must be the only place where you can find peace.
Peace is something we need to go on, and also forgiveness. That is a lot to ask of these parents now but maybe they can be helped and find peace and forgiveness for that is the only way you will have your sanity intact.
At the moment we have very sick daughter who is in hospital in Pretoria, with a bad kidney, but through a lot of prayer and thanks to God she is going to be okay.
So never forget where to go for help and please never forget to say thank you.
It is just like with the rain we all have draught and yet we have been getting rain and will survive, but everyone is asking but not one is saying thank you.
If you found this depressing, I am sorry but I do feel a lot better.
May you have a wonderful day from the wonderful Wild Coast.
