Thing is we are all mad crazy in one way or another. So grateful you shared this and reaching out to you. Have you ventured down the cannabinoids route? Kick start your body's natural endocannabinoids so it can self repair? The "erb" is probably the best medicine around, but not a panacea by any means. Diet, rest, exercise... yadda... I am boring myself too as I am sure you've had this echoed time and time again. Do you ever think that you don't need someone else to tell you what it is really? Hugs and don't ever worry about labels, unless they are those annoying labels that you get on gifts that when you pull off leave a big rippy bit that looks sh*t. They're the labels that stick for longer, nothing else!! <3<3 Doctors aren't taught everything are they? So pigeon-holed that the bigger picture never taken in. Our ancestors knew how to see things as a whole and the natural plants and geopharmaceuticals they used like ayahuasca (mental health and well being) and lapis lazuli for inflammation and pain etc tore strips of today's knowledge. Sending love.