O lonely heart so timid of approach,
Like the shy tropic flower that shuts its
lips
To the faint touch of tender finger tips:
What is your word? What question would
you broach?
Your lustrous-warm eyes are too sadly
kind
To mask the meaning of your dreamy
tale,
Your guarded life too exquisitely frail
Against the daggers of my warring mind.
Poem by Claude mcKay more
This poem reflects so much in me, I saw this beautiful contest, told my friend about it, they told me to join, but fear and discouragement filled my mind, and so much thoughts keep setting in. Now like going against the ocean currents, I faced my own fears to write this.
My display picture is that of 'courage the cowardly dog' a coward dog that always saves the day, everytime.
Hello steemians!
Hello world!
Brief Introduction
My name is magdnrobinson, but since the name is quite long, people call me Robin.
I am a recent graduate of medical biochemistry from the University of Uyo, Akwa Ibom Nigeria.
I am from Edo state, but live in Lagos State Nigeria. The 4th child of a family 👪 of 5.
Why I joined Steemit
I joined Steemit December 26, 2017, through a friend 
Me and some steemians at the Steemit uyo hub.
I finished my final year project, and Me and my colleagues (3 of us) spent 170,000 naira each in carrying out this project, that's a total of 510,000 naira, which is a bit more than half a million naira.
shocked?
I too am super still shocked It's much, yes, it was not what we expected, it was not the original experimental design plan,
we were carrying out analysis on a plant leaf Gongronema latifolium commonly called "Utazi or Arokeke " in the south and west part of Nigeria respectively.
My colleague and I in the lab.
We were each carrying out analysis on different fractions of the leaf.
We were to check for the antidiabetic contests of the leaf extract in alloxan-induced diabetic rats. On different parameters : Blood glucose level, haematological indices, body weight, lipid profile.
90 albino wistar rats were used for this experimental analysis
I am talking too much science, let me stop.
So yes, I really spent much, I remember my elder brother calling me not to call my mom again for money, that it's getting too much, and she is just the only one, lost my dad when I was 3yrs.
I had to source for help from my church, then from a friend,
one time I had to borrow money from else where to settle the debts for this project, as my friend called me after two weeks of loan, that she is in so much need of money.
Worst part was when we were half way to the result of the experimental analysis, it was discovered that there was error in the readings and calculations, hence, we had to start again, buying another set of albino wistar rats.
I remember telling my colleagues that I can't do this anymore, the lecturer should just give me a grade D or C, let me just go.
But Steemit helped me solve so much of this depts and still solving them.
After project defense.
Life communications
This young man you see typing this, is a pure introvert, I don't talk much, and really don't like talking,
When I joined Steemit, I was added to some whatsapp group, and for the first time, I had 80 messages, from different people, not group message, but direct messages, I was disturbed, really, I don't chat much, 10 direct message is enough, I remember telling one fellow steemian we should use voice chat, my hands are tired of typing.
Offline meetings
My first Steemit meetup with other steemians brought out the little spark in Me, who could have thought I could talk or relate with people so much.
Financial communications
As said earlier, Steemit have helped me paying out so many depts, and still paying.
I have been able to complete my project, defend it, though am yet to submit, had to hold on back a bit, told my project supervisor I will be unable to print for now, would do so when I have enough money, she understood and told me, that there is no problem.
big shocker, another financial crisis
February 12, was a big shocker for me, I was called by my head of department in biochemistry, to be told I have to resit for a course, I told him, I passed it, he checked, then said something is missing, that I should apply to the school senate for rechecking of results, which I did, then the HOD (head of department) told me, exam starts 19th, today is 12, school portal will close soon, my advice is for you to pay school fees again and just write the course again.
I was dumbfounded, I had to sell some sbd, called my mom, told her the situation, which she was so mad with me and everything, but she sent some money, I was able to pay up.
Then she called me that night reminding me that my younger sister is at home waiting for me to finish, so she can also enter the University and she is 3yrs gone, now this issue of extra semester.
I couldn't reply her, but told her "mom, all is well".
I waited for my elder brother to finish before I entered school, stayed at home for three and half years.
I told my younger sis (Victoria) I would make her proud, she should just not worry, but try to take the exam, I would help her out with some money, she laughed, and asked where will I get it, I told her not to worry.
My mom, my sis and I
Why didn't I tell her about Steemit?
This you may think, but no, no, mom dare not hear am into online something, she'll literally say it's yahoo yahoo (fraud), and all those complain, I want to avoid such, but I'm Planning to surprise her one day, to prove her fears wrong.
Aside the financial challenges, I have some good opportunities with Steemit,
I can't remember when last I called my mom for money for feeding, or to ask for things that now look minor.
business communication
I am not the business type of person, no, no, I can get confused with the money calculations.
I am a volunteer, I did a course in volunteerism while in senior high, and with Steemit, it has made it so much rossy.
future plans
Steemit is here and here to stay, my first big cash out will be to surprise my mom and siblings, convincing them of this platform.
I am a volunteer, I tell people help Is what I do, yes I love to help, when it involves energy, I'll do to my capability, when it involves finance, I'll do to my capacity.
The scriptures says >" the glory of the youth Is in their strength" (paraphrase)
Thanks to 
I tried uploading more pictures, so as not to miss out in this week contest, seems, but my phone is giving me serious challenges, had to tell a friend to upload a that one and send to me. Would edit it properly with more pictures when I can.
I am
love will fall a frozen heart
