I Give Back Your Heart
Morning
"Good morning too, you"
David is my night. Someone who I loved. Her sincere smile I always wait every morning, I'm very happy. Previously I was a very dislike morning, to me morning is the hardest moment to start the activity because very comfortable in bed.since I know and fall in love with heru I start to like the morning, even I never wake up after sunrise.
I sat down with her voice, as always she always asked about my day.
"Nis, did your day yesterday be fun? "Asked heru opening the conversation. Always happy I feel every day I always he noticed.he is very different from most men.
"Hariku fun, and you" I replied with a smile looked into his eyes.
"Hariku was fun, thank goodness if your day is fun. Means do'aku granted God "He smiled turned to look at me.
"Your prayer is granted by God? "
"Yeah, I always pray every day you're happy. That's what I always expect."
"Heru, I love you" I held her hand as if she did not want to let go, the less she wanted to lose it.
"I love you too," David replied tightly to my hand, even tighter.
Suddenly his cell phone rang.
"Your handphone has a call coming in" I told him,
"I'm sorry I picked up the phone first yh".
"I love you dear" I think maybe the friend of his office who contacted him, because it has 1 hour to go to work hours.
Heru selsai call and then he sits next to me.
"Who's calling early? "I try to ask, because naturally if a woman a little suspicious a lot of jealousy.
"My dear office friend, he asked me to go to office because there is a meeting with the boss.I was asked to go in early for preparation. "I can only trust him, even though I'm actually suspicious because it is not as usual.
"Yasudah you cepetan kekantor later you can dimarahin your boss if you come late."I told him to hurry to the office.
"Honey dear, I went to the office first yh" Heru immediately rushed off.
"Do not you forget something? "I asked
Not usually he forgot if every he wants to go kiss my forehead first.I began to suspect there was something that he hid from me.
"Oh yes, I love you" he kissed my forehead, this is the first time he forgot, but usually I never remind or I ask first.
I'm still quiet where we met just keep thinking about what makes heru not as usual anymore.I just worried he was close again with his former lover whom he loved very much.because I understand the words are easy to cover, while the feeling is always honest about what is there heart.
It was a break and my daud called, as usual he reminded me not to forget lunch and not too long watching tv.
"Hello, what are you doing? Do not forget the lunch yh and do not watch tv for too long "he was considerate enough, he was fun and made me feel comfortable with his attitude so.
"Love honey, I again read the book.You also should not be too busy with work and forget to lunch. "I reminded him.
"Sweet dear, already yh. I want to keep my lunch going on. "David hung up the phone like a rushed person without saying hello before.I started to get a little annoyed because he started to make my heart uncomfortable.
Because this uncomfortable feeling made me feel uncomfortable at home, I decided to go out to relax my mind and have lunch.because it will make me think too much that no-no on heru if the more I think, because that's the woman if he loves his lover is merely afraid to lose it.
When I got to the place to eat, I noticed the distant from the distance sitting with a woman.I was still hesitant because heru said he was working and very busy, not mungkn he lunch outside the office. I walked up to him who was cool joking laugh. I did not think he was my beloved.
"David. I can not believe you said you were busy with your work.then what are you doing here "I asked who was very emotional.
"Nissa, are you here? "I was surprised because I was there and found him eating with a woman.
"I'm lara. David is having lunch with me. Who are you ? "Lara is a former lover heru 1 year ago.
"So you're lara, I'm nissa and I'm nobody.thank you for the surprise today "I answered the question lara.
"Nissa I can explain, please do not misunderstand" she persuaded me. But I do not care and go straight from where it cries to hold my aching heart.
I went straight home with disappointment and hope that I did not want to be true.because today hope has given answer.
The man I love now gives me the depths of a wound, a wound I had never thought of before.
I sat down in front of the house remembering everything that ever existed, before it finally broke.
"I should not have believed him much, I'm not so sure of him. A heart full of sense is sharper than a thorn.I'm stupid "
"Nissa. Why are you daydreaming? "That sound surprised me.
" Mother ? It's okay bu "I pretend to smile as if there's no problem.
"Do not lie to mom. I know very well you do not usually like this if you're not heartbroken. Are you having your beloved problem? "Ask the mother who is so affectionate and try to find out.
"David.I accidentally caught him alone with his ex-lover at lunch. He lied to me, he said he was busy working but real ...."I cried and hugged my mother, a soothing body full of comfort and compassion.
"Do you love him? "Asked the mother.
"Iyah bu, I love him very much" I replied, still crying.
"She does not love you so much, if she loves you she will not play behind you and lie to you.release his heart he is not good for your future "Mother advised me, and I release my embrace.
"But bu ... .."
"Nothing but just follow your heart. Better to be alone without anxiety than to survive with the wrong person. Mother supports whatever you decide. But do not you regret it! "The eggs stroked my hair. Then the mother went into the house.
It was already dark, the twilight was already set.I want my memories to sink in the twilight. If it's dark then I do not matter, I want tomorrow to start a more beautiful day.
Why love is always like this, beautiful beginning because believe then end up giving a disappointed wound. Perhaps because the heart is very easy to pick and the wound is very difficult to recover.
The morning came back, but I let that feeling go.for what if it only annoys the heart. I'd better return it to the owner.
My cell phone rings and the person is David. A bit lazy picked up the phone dariny, but I want to talk to him.
"Good morning, you"
"Morning" curtly replied greetings from him.
"I'm sorry for yesterday's incident"
"I'm sorry for you. I want us to meet today "
" Thank you, dear.You are very good indeed. Where do we meet?
"Where we used to eat at 2 noon. Do not be late "
I turned the phone off immediately, I did not want to talk too much because I did not want the conversation to make a faltering decision. I forgive her does not mean I want to go back to her.
At 2 pm I was waiting for him. Finally he came with a flower arrangement for me.looking at me with a smile that once made me feel heartbroken and heartbroken.
"Hey dear, you've been waiting"
"No" I asked him a question.
" Thank God. Are you still mad at me? "
"No, I have forgiven you and this is the last time"
"I promise not to repeat it again" daud holding my hand.
"You are now free.I want us to just get here, I do not want to continue our relationship again "I answered frankly.
" Why ? "Asked heru who can not accept.
"It's enough for me to trust you. Why do I keep all the love if you alone are only able to keep it half hearted.you better go if necessary do not ever come back because this heart is very hurt because disappointed "
David is silent.
"I give back my heart that I have brought away with my dreams. It's no use keeping me if you still have half the feeling for him. Forgive me if I disappoint. Now your heart is intact, give it to him that you think you need.though honestly my heart is slowly fragile. "I go on and on, I reveal everything and end everything.
"But I can not" daud try to make me cancel the decision.
"Why not, you can be happy with other hearts without having to make other hurt wounds. This has become my decision. Forgive me. "I immediately left the silent heru that place.I know he tried to change without me being disappointed.
I went home leaving my own silent shrugs and I was trying to keep my heart pounding. Because honestly I still love him and his lies that made me go away from him.
Accidentally when out I hit a man who was walking, because my fault yag little regardless of the way.
"Sorry".I said, not looking at his face.
"I should be sorry". The man replied that I then saw his face. I did not think he was endless. Endar was one of my best friends in high school.me and endar never meet after graduating school because endar college outside city.
"Endar? is this really you "I asked a little surprised.
"Yeah I'm an endar, you nissa right? it's been so long we do not meet after graduating school "answered endar who also realized the woman who was in front of me is me.
" How are you ? I really miss you "
" I am good. I also miss you.and how are you ? "
"I'm a little bad. I just parted with my beloved because he has let me down "
Endar looked at me. "Never mind .... No need to cry over what happened, hopefully you can be with someone better than him "Endar always reinforces me with his words.
"Thank you, you always strengthen me".
" You are welcome.do you want to go home? Let me inter "Invite the endar want to mengatarku go home.
"Okay I want you to go home. "
I went home with the endar. The man who always made me comfortable finally came home.
"Nissa, please do not keep crying. The lover died one ago there was a thousand who waited "Seeing me with a look that like open hope.
" I understand.I will open my heart to others "
"If that's me, then how? "I do not think endar will say that, maybe he's kidding.
"You still like joking like before" I replied incredulously.
" I'm seriously. Honestly I want to say my feelings long ago.but I can not because even though it said it would be useless if I'm far from you "Endar started seriously telling his feelings to me.
"I also have the same feelings for you. But this is not the right time because I just parted with my beloved.I need a little peace and eliminate what I still remember "I answered it but I see endar not the least disappointed with my answer. In fact he smiled at me.I'm sure he's the easy guy to understand.
"I'll wait for that time" His smile opened up new hope for me to be happy.
Loving is not half-hearted, better not if only the end is just a wound. I give your heart back, then I open my heart to someone who just as long as heart to bring longing, forget the past and write happy without disappointment.