Well there's a time and a space for everything, even if it is having a mental breakdown. Don't get me wrong, I'm not suggesting we should all just go off, willie nillie to the bent Utopia we would all kill nirvana to find. You know that very personal heaven that is made just for the singular size serve.....
That primo existentialism that will lead us to the place where all things begin and end and nothing else in between... The great "I" in the chasm. Except this existence we call life. On that sphere of things we have a setting for humans called NORMAL, and we can find these instructions through the walls of mainstream society.. Of course if you happen to dwell on the fringes thereof, please feel free to take a back seat to all the ensuing sarcasm which might otherwise make you ill.
When you suddenly find your vision has varying shadows of dark and light in tiny pixels and from within the centre of that is a large colourful whirlwind of swirling, like a rainbow twister looking straight at you, ready for your mind to jump in, you think, I can't work today..... I can't even bloody see, how on earth can I work, if I can't see.. I rub my eyes and blink, clearing the sleep and desperately trying not to ruin the make-up. Deciding to take a breath of fresh air, I step out into the open and notice the weather is undecided also, it feels like the clouds are trying to descend from the heavens without rain, it's as though they want to stay clouds and just come and sit on top of us.... The radio plays in the background to remind me of reality awaiting and I take a deep breath and return to my desk..
Check the same spread sheet eleven times and seeing something different each time, tells me that the breath of fresh air may not be enough to solve this problem... It seemed to come and go and a weekend away and I would be fine then by Tuesday not so good and by Thursday I have all but lost me shit.. I don't feel any different other than the fact that I can't seem to get a good nights sleep and haven't for about a year. But eh.. who cares.