Hey Guys, Welcome to my blog. This is something different from what I would usually do. Few years ago I lost my dad, and it gets hard, easy and hard again. To ease my pain I write letters to him, most of them I don't ever read after writing.
I decided to share this letter I wrote a few weeks back when I was in that space. Am not sure why am doing this but it may just help someone going through a though experience. Writing makes it easy to deal....
Thanks for reading. I keep praying it gets better.
Dear Dad,
For a while, I v thought of u in both good times and bad and never got to sending u a mssg. Today is the day, I get to you. I constantly ask myself what it would feel like if u were here? Will writing be my escape or talking to u like I always did? Laughing while u spoke is my favorite memory (would give an arm and a leg to have that one more time).
If there is another life(& I wish there is cus we did not get to say our proper good byes), I still want u as my father(without the smoking of course but who am I to complain?)
You are perfect in my eyes (still are). U could do no wrong and even when I knew you were, I found a reason to believe u right.
With you came joy, love and laughter. When I asked why mum thought me different, you said I was and promised that she would understand. She finally understood but it took your death to get us there.
When I think of you especially in times I need you, it feels like you died again just before me.
I guess loosing you never gets easy even though I wish it did. It's crazy Papito!
U were and still are my hero
It's hard without you to smile at me. Your words always in my head.
Forever and Always Papa!
I understand now that your death did hurt but this is a different level of pain.
I miss you so much! Will I ever get to see you again? Maybe the smile....... Just for a minute.
Luv Always
Ego.
Thanks for reading.
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