Keep in mind this
Should you ever surrender all expectations regarding life so much that you need to kick the bucket, you have the current methods and long to end your life, you have composed a suicide note to those you will abandon and you are set up to bite the dust… right then and there, stop.
Get a couple of scissors. Remove at the note until the point that you wind up with a bit of paper in the state of a key. Go to an entryway, any one will do. Push the paper key forward and turn your hand as though opening a fanciful bolt.
The bolt is genuine. Open the entryway. There you will discover it. The other earth. The one that anticipates to supplant this one when it bites the dust. That demise is inescapable, however meanwhile the other earth will have a place with you.