She is not my own child but she’s my Baby. I am 43 years old and have never had children. My niece had a baby and now I watch the baby while my niece works and goes to school.
It never came into my mind that I would be a mother, because I always have had this fear in my heart that I could not be a good parent. To me, the responsibilities of a mother to her child are very tough. A lot of reasons why I am afraid to have my own child are in my childhood. It wasn't very good. I grew up witnessing the hardships and struggles of life . It made me promised to my self that I will never have my own child because I am afraid that she /he will experience the hardships of life..
Everything changed when an angel came into my life through my niece. She conceived in young age and become a single mom. She brought a little girl into our lives . It broke my heart watching my niece and her little angel, thinking how she could raise a child without any resources of her own. Deep in my heart I prayed asking God to embrace the baby in His loving arms. The fear in my heart, to have and raise a child of my own that i kept for long years vanished. The feeling of love and ready to help and raise the little angel overcome my fear.
God changed my fear into courage and joy. The fear changed into willingness of ready to help and raise the baby, be with her to show love and beauty of life.
My dear friends this is my new life experience :)
God Bless Everyone :)