Wow! I shall keep on with it!! Learned allot somehow. How you'd like to be a dear friend to someone...yet if you enter their inner circle someone could be afraid of???oh!? and say and think - who the hell is this guy!? Ya love and friendship can seem tough sometimes but it wins out I notice!!! Haha like my grandma would say what would the neighbours think!? LOL But aha!! that's exactly what I want my relationships like!! - we are good neighbours to each other!! That's what I could have told the pink hair lady tonight! She was really nice. Though you know life is tough, people have their troubles. It's funny when I said if only she could have a friend like me!! Haha, now I have her number, if it works. You just don't know and no big deal, people have ticks and don't mean that in a negative way. You appreciate them for who they are and going through. Best to just cheer someone on in their process, don't try to change them.
Feeling more wholesome really, the other dear friend lady I saw tonight came from a baseball game she participated in!! Hearing that really made my night!!! I was able to relax down from the other people of the night in that moment!! I let her do her business 'cause I was about to leave anyway but made sure to say bye to her. I would send her some songs on text that sometimes go with what I'm saying in the message. Somehow when she's there I end up playing some of those same songs (on the sound system) I sent her while she is there at the pub. Funny how that happens and works out, playing some of these songs chills me out too. I don't get so nervous or ideas in my mind, try to remember I just enjoy someone being around, they set off a good vibe to me.
Somehow I'm getting on by meeting some more friendly people. Mostly female but also a couple guys too. Ya just don't know when of if you'll see certain people again. But uh I think it's about finding a sense of community spirit. Like you want to lift your own and others spirits. So I think oh well I have some life experience, having a more simple life because I've known hardship keeps me on a level path, it's almost like it doesn't matter what happens. Of course I am effected 'cause I'm a sensitive person. It's just about appreciating those sensitivities.
So yea got through the night, not tripping so bad really. I know I gotta focus on my own thing too!! Not worry so much about other people. More be there when you can and stay in touch if you can. You never know what a relationship could end up being. Stay at it, slower is better, don't rush in, really get to know someone. So yea that's it, tired, just thought to get something out. Worked out and what a day!